Hewo~ I wrote this in the bathtub (where I do most of my best thinking, actually) the other day and I was like well.. not sure how I'd make it a song but the words are super good. So I just read it out loud for you and posted it! -------------------------- Words: 1 is for the secrets in my monst'rous book of lies 2 is for the crows currently pecking out my eyes 3 is for the words you said before I could awake 4 there goes a witch, let's go burn her at the stake! 5 is drawing treacle from a well that's almost dry 6 is all the years where I'd forgotten how to cry 7 is oblivion and 8 is just as bad 9 is all the terrors that I didn't know I had 10 opens the gate and 11 lights the path 12 is a quiet storm before you feel it's wrath Round and round the clock we go 2 x 12 a day All the time in all the world for the words I'll never say ------------------ Now Aven, you might be asking, that was really depressing. Are you okay? Actually, as I'm writing this right now, maybe...? I WAS writing the poem about my middle school years (also the words she'll never say are "I'm sorry") but then I woke up today and I was like Yup. I don't know how I'm making it through today. Because you see, I love all of you so.. SO much.. and you guys really stress me out. So much. I used to be like the most people-pleaser of people-pleasers in elementary school and then I turned mean in middle school because I was over it, and now that I'm in high school I'm learning how to not take it out on people. And I do that by writing and singing but that people-pleasing Aven is still in me somewhere and she pops up every so often so I feel like I NEED to be needed. But at the same time I have a life outside of recording and writing (so even though it's my favorite) I'm still figuring out how to balance it. I've got my to-do list and reminders and I try not to accept things I know I can't do. I'M FINE I SWEAR- there was this one point today where I forgot how to breathe for like 10 seconds because I was thinking about the audition I have to do this week plus everything else. But this isn't REALLY a vent? It's an explanation of how I'm not currently depressed I'm just stressed out but I'll deal with it xD thank you for reading down here lol ALSO IF I PROMISED YOU SOMETHING AND I'M LATE FORGIVE ME JUST TELL ME AND YOU'LL HOP UP TO NUMBER ONE ON THE TO-DO LIST I'M SORRY
