I like to act like everything is okay behind the screen, but I think I owe it to you guys at this point to tell you what's really going on. It ain't pretty, but it's the truth. I've been dealing with depression for quite a while now. At first, I thought it was burnout. But after a while, it started to feel like I couldn't do anything. Any time I started to work on something, I'd quit minutes later. Eventually, I was spending most of the day lying around in my room. It was a large part of why both Take Flight Mania and Just One More Game got delayed. For the next several months, while I would occasionally have sparks of motivation, more and more of my time each day was being spent lying around, doing nothing. In March, something special happened. That was the month I came out as non-binary. It was the best I felt in forever. I finally started to remember what it was like to have the drive to create. Later that month, I returned to Scratch, and I felt like nothing could stop me. However, judging by this project's existence, you can probably tell it didn't last... I started to feel even worse. I don't know what exactly triggered it, but my mind just started to collapse. Whenever I'm in a bad mood, I start to think of all the ways I feel like I've failed. It's just this overwhelming rush of thinking about how I've failed as a creator, an artist, and a person. On my worst days, I feel worthless and I start to hate myself. Sometimes I think... why do I go on? Because of you guys. You guys make everything worth it. Each and every one of you who's followed me, liked my projects, heck, even if you just clicked on this project here, that tells me you care. Take Flight Mania was a gift from me to you, and that's why I was able to finish it. I can't thank all of you enough. But here's a few people I especially want to mention: @SpyroStudios, thank you for always being at my side, and thanks for forgiving me. Sunnii_W, thank you for being a part of my projects and letting me be part of yours. @Sparkygan, @SlyCotton-Apriwolf, @ThatStrangeGuy, , , and , thanks for sticking around and being there to support me. , thank you for cheering me on and remixing my projects. Scratch Team, thanks for getting Take Flight Mania on the front page. And , thank you for inspiring me to open up. I can think of a lot more people that I don't have time to mention, but just know if you're seeing this, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for being here. I'm gonna keep going strong, for me, and for all of you. <3 -Cab
