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Im so done. It's not even been a week since I turned 15 and my ex is already causing my best friend and I problems. Not only have they been lying about the both of us but they've been spreading rumors about how we hate their guts and pray on their downfall 24/7, when I can't even be in the same room as them without having to constantly keep myself from bawling my eyes out or zoning out cause I don't wanna remember the trauma I faced while dating them I just want to live peacefully man, and it feels like I can never escape this stupid hell because it always has to be about them because we wronged them and not the fact that they lied, that they're self centered, or that they're a hypocrite, or that they harassed my best friend for months begging him to date them, when she clearly wasn't interested. THEY EVEN LIED THAT THEY DID DATE AT ONE POINT. I'm so sick of it. I'm tired of living in fear, I'm tired of feeling nauseous, I'm tired of having to constantly stay stable to even do anything because it's all just been "ex said this" "ex said that" I'm so tired. I just wanted to move on from all of that but ever since those two girls at prom asked me about my experiences that's all that's been shoved down my throat. Now I'm needing to recount my memories from when I was 13, being asked to provide screenshots for so many things. I've already broken down several times I just want to be left alone about this, I just want to feel normal after 6 months of wanting to be dead or feeling like nothing while with my ex but because I've been asked to talk and speak up, spec (ex) is saying my friend and I are spreading rumors. ONLY TWO PEOPLE ASKED AND THAT'S IT. there were no rumors, I was just ASKED to tell my side of the story because they thought yours wasn't adding up. if you're such a nice person, why do this?? why lie?? why spread rumors?? why stir up a cold pot?? you claim that WE hate your guts and wish you were gone and that WE see you as an enemy, but ALL of that is untrue. You're not our "enemy" you're just someone we don't like because you hurt us badly. You're the one obsessed with us. just leave us alone. Grow up. but uhm, I do want to give appreciation to all my friends and my mom: i know like all of them don't use scratch but you guys have been so kind and patient with me over all of this. like literally all the ones I went to prom with kept me distracted after realizing spec was there. Like I love you guys so much and I hope to never lose you <3 also like one of them said they were gonna get me another garfield plush!! mother's been there for me ever since I told her everything and she's just been so kind and has been checking up on me cause this has been a lot Also Wingus I’m so sorry they got you involved, I wish they hadn’t because you didn’t deserve any of that and just know you’re my best friend and I love you <3 /p I may take a slight break for awhile, idk, im just tired and wanna be left alone from all this. I may come on every once in awhile but I probably won't post for a few. thank you so much for reading and listening. sorry y'all have to read my crash out </3