worthless ~ a poem posted this on another site a while back and forgot to put it on here so :P ------------------------------------------ I’m done. I’m done trying to hide the tears. I’m done telling everyone my fears; I’m done pretending that what you say doesn’t hurt. I say I’m done, but how can I move on? When I’ve kept up this facade for so long? I’m done pretending that it’s all okay, I’m trying to forget the mess that you made, But reality seems to have finally caught up; All those hidden truths rising to the top. Worthless. How a single word can shatter me so, Worthless. Whispered in with every single word. Worthless. A thought that I’ve constantly pushed away; But maybe it’s a truth that haunts me to this day, Maybe worthless is truly what everyone says. Worthless. Maybe that’s the truth. Maybe that’s why everyone leaves, Leaving my tears to soak in the sheets; Maybe it’s why I’ll never find that friend, Because I’ve always been worthless. From now till the end. I’m done bottling everything up, I’m done being the person everyone drops, I’m done trying to hide away, I’m ready to finally do things my way. But I can’t help the thoughts bouncing my head, I’ve always been worthless, that’s what they’ll never say. How can I trust anyone to this day? They all claim to be my friends, But they never reach out.. never check in. Time has of course pulled us apart, But maybe.. I hoped… I truly thought. That maybe I finally wouldn’t be replaced, Maybe I didn’t exist only to be erased, All I’ve ever wanted was to find someone worth it all. Someone who I never would hide my feelings from, A person so worth it I’d forget my own doubts. A friend so true that they’d never let me down. But here I am all alone the walls closing in, Silent sobs wracking my body, Surrendering to the waves; To the tide of self-loathing, Their grasp firm and unrelenting. Here I am afraid to open up, Cause I’ve always been worthless. That comes without a doubt, The truth strikes like a cord, Painful yet bold. I’m worthless, and nobody will ever know.
mine obviously :P thumb ai generated on canva
