Why do you wanna d** they say. Why do you wanna st*b urself they say. ILL TELL YOU F***ING WHY!! CAUSE IM DONE HAVING PANNICK ATTACKS! IM DONE HAVING NO PRIVACY! IM DONE HAVING A SISTER WHOMALMOST ALWAYS GETS HER WAY!! IM DONE LIVING LIFE IF ALL IM GONNA LIVE IT FOR IS TO GET TRAMPLED OVER!! I DONT WANNA HOLD IT IN AND PRETEND TO BE FINE! IM DONE HAVING FAKE FRIENDS, AND HAVING FAMILY HARASSING ME!! WHY CANT I F***ING LIVE A HAPPY LIFE WITH REAL FRIENDS AND AN ACTUALL SUPPORTIVE FAMILY!!
Everything I thought I had that kept me going is gone. Just now my dad told me to keep my bedroom door open while I was trying to be alone. Even when I make a Fort or hide somewhere in the house that is hidden, those horrible people find me. I can't get one second of happiness in this world anymore without regretting it the next second. Like seriously give me ONE good reason that i should live. There is nothing I can do to be happy. There is nobody I can go to to feel comfort. And even when I'm mentally alone, I can never be physically alone. I love you doesn't work on me. Compliments don't work on me. Friends don't work on me. Eating or exercising doesn't work on me. These past to years I have been getting closer and closer to getting the courage to commit. Now with the final question, when will that percentage be complete?
