i wish people would hold me (metaphorically) as they would her. but i can’t ask for that. because that isn’t okay. because i don’t have enough of a problem to be held. “she deserves it more” wouldn’t they say? i suffer so quietly because i was always supposed to suffer on my own because it was selfish to ask to be held because there wasn’t enough wrong with me in the first place but now i have enough wrong to be held and i’ve gone too far to ask
the anxiety arc
