My grades are ridiculously awful and I'm tooo lazy, stupid and dumb to do them right. I always act like a stupid child, having panic attacks and meltdowns in class. I don't even understand why anyone would want to be friends with someone as useless as me. I can't stop walking with my head in the freaking clouds, and I can't wake up and see the real world. I will never be anything or go anywhere, I will never be enough, they will never be satisfied, I will never find true happiness, God doesn't need a sould like me because I'm too selfish and stuck up to listen to anyone. I whine like atl three year old about how sad I am all the time , when all my pain is my fault. It's my fault that I can't make the happy. It's my fault people are unhappy when I'm around. It's my fault my teachers have to deal with a stupid kid like me. It's my fault my family has to dealt with me. I don't even know how in the world I've survived so far. I'm too incompetent to even do my own hair, and too much of a coward to even learn how to drive. I should be able to do all of this by now, and yet, I don't. How should I punish myself? I deserve it, so what's the best way? Something that will make me never get bad grades again.
Help me
