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tw. anger and lgbtq+ content why did i put lgbtq+ in the tw. if you dont support something seriously is wrong ( sorry ) so i came out to my parents they dont believe in my choice. they say im just... confused. NO IM NOT. ive known since YEARS ago since i met *****. and the second we f* get tgt and the instant i find the years, YES YEARS, of courage built up in me to FINALLY tell them, they think im pulling an unfunny prank. "--- you shouldnt joke about that" they said "honey, its ok to be confused ! and can you tell us whos been telling you these ideas so we can report them ??" they said. my heart sank. IM THE SAME PERSON AS MINUTES AGO, EXCEPT THEN, I THOUGHT I COULD TRUST YOU. then, i thought you could give me a hug and say that you accepted me as i was. but no. they signed me up for therapy sessions 4 times a week and want me to confess my "sins" to god, hoping that hell forgive me. the thing is, my parent think theyre protecting me. they think that their way is the only way. but not for me. i have a girlfriend ok. and i love her. her parents dont care. nor do her sibblings. or her friends. but my parents. my sibblings. my friends. they wont talk to me. imaging this. you tell your parents your gay and BOOM. no more friends. and at home, its worse. my family has conversations in other rooms, but the second i come in they rather 1. stop talking and glare at me like i killed someone or 2. leave the room. and i have no privacy. they go though my phone and blocked all the girls on my snap and my messages. so i get in the habit of " talking to the right people again " it hurts. i cant trust anyone. its too much for me. im not even 14 yet ( age 9-13 ). i dont feel accepted by anyone and i cant see my future anymore. arent people supposed to accept. arent poeple supposed to support me. arent people supposed to be happy for me, that i found the courage to come out. arent they ? because it seems to me that they dont. nobody does. because nobody understands. nobody relates. except her. actually not even her. because people dont mind her being gay. because everyone supports her and her parents are still talking to her and she still has a nice relationship with her sibblings and she still has her friends... but i dont and i dont know what i did that was so wrong for them to hate me. oh yeah. its because i like girls.