sometimes I feel so much that it's as if I'm about to burst but other times I feel hardly anything at all Occasionally not very often I feel tall and nice but other times I feel like ice phobias fascinate me I have about 12 some are silly emetophobia fear of puke and some are scary nyctophobia fear of the night or fear of the dark I'm always so afraid to tell people about them because I know they'll know I'm weak days weeks months I've spent contemplating my labels at first I couldn't find any but now I have too many labels for fears labels for feelings labels for genders and maybe I'm healing nothing very traumatic happened in my past but still I feel like it maybe has sometimes I feel down in the ditches other times I'm a bit too big for my britches or at least that's what my grandma would say But I'm okay I deal with my feelings every single day I kind of hate my feelings every single day I wish I could take a break from feeling things I wish I could sleep for a week I need more sleep I go to bed early but I'm a night owl hoo hoo-ing looking around trying to figure out things without making a sound
