I'm tired of the disrespect. IRL problems are poopy. I don't wanna go back to venting every day like I used to...but I feel like I'm being forced to. Sometimes, I feel bad that I'm autistic. I'm just an emotional, pathetic mess at times. Listen, my dad never gave me any punishments as a kid. He didn't wanna hurt my feelings. But...it made me worse. My brain now constantly believes that if I get defensive, I'll get what I want. No one respects that anymore. I'm a completely different person, yet people treat me like I'm a punching bag. I'm not a crybaby, yet people choose to believe that. Just because I tend to complain all the time doesn't mean that I'm stupid. The stupid one is the one that calls ME stupid, when I'm meant to be unique. I don't want to fit in, yet I don't want to stay like this, yet I just can't change, no matter what I try. People need to respect my boundaries and who I am as a person. So tell me, would you still respect me if I was an autistic, emotional, pathetic mess like I am now...?
... ...I'm still learning...
