- posting this on here bc i feel bad 4 venting 2 my friends all the time, i feel like they're getting tired of hearing abt my problems + i'm not at school today, so i have no one to talk to anyway - I hate having my birthday around this time for some reason. First of all, it's on may 11th, so it's gonna be on mothers day this year :/ I'm gonna sound selfish for this but I don't wanna have to give someone a present on my birthday. Don't get me wrong, I love my mom, but I don't wanna share it with anyone. Also, last year after 7th grade, there was this school trip to go to Costa Rica. I didn't want to go, but my parents gave me no choice. So, for my THIRTEENTH birthday, I got a bunch of supplies for a trip I didn't want to go on. If my birthday wasn't around that time, I could've gotten birthday gifts I actually wanted and still gotten the supplies. Also my dad bought a new house and we could literally start packing right now if we wanted to. Yk what my birthday present from him is gonna be? (he told me), it's gonna be freaking furniture! My brothers gonna be getting furniture even though his birthday isn't until mid September! It feels like they're using my birthday as an excuse to not get me stuff that I want! I don't want a stupid dresser for my birthday :( I'm starting to hate my birthday lol. Also abt my mouth, I got a procedure done on Monday. I had to get THREE numbing shots, and numbing shots hurt so, so so so bad. I can't drink anything without a straw, eating solid food and opening my mouth to much hurts, and my upper lip is really swollen. I also have an orchestra event on Saturday but my orchestra teacher was planning on only giving us this week to practice, and I don't bring my violin home. So I've missed 4/5 days of practice and I might miss tomorrow as well. I'm just so stressed out. + my dad keeps getting mad and being like "you need to eat solid food eventually, [dead name]" LIKE I GOT A PROCEDURE ON MY MOUTH OF COURSE I CAN'T EAT SOLID FOOD WHAT DID YOU EXPECT. - I wanna go to my mom's house :( anyways bye bye -
