So this is a mix between a vent and a life update. So starting off with the life update (It's happier <3) The pros: I got chickens again!! I've been reading ALOT :') I came out to my mum (My dad knows but he won't admit it to himself) The cons: Had to go to the hospital, My Dad's being an a****** and my mum is going to help out with my grandparents for 10 days, Got into a relationship that i ended (It was with a boy and i'm lesbian but he didn't know that so i felt pressured to say yes when he asked me out T-T), My dad is being h0m0ph0bic T-T Vent: TW homophobia (Not from me obvi) and SA. So I come from a very trad family, like the kind where men can do no wrong and everything is blamed on the women, Istg if my dad had a son he would be the most spoilt kid ever, in my family if you make one mistake you get told off and you have to say sorry and you won't do it again (I get that this part is pretty normal) It's also frustrating when you suffer from fainting spells and nobody believes you until you're in hospital for it, it's like your words don't matter unless you're a man in my family, my dad keeps going on about how men get such a bad reputation, and yes i know it's not all men but enough men so i couldn't feel safe in a room with my older "Best friend" when I was eight years old. Eight years old and I already couldn't trust this boy enough to be in a room alone with him, And that one time I decided to ignore my gut feeling he SA'd me, just like that. So yes I would pick the bear, Every single time. My mum won't let me have sleepovers incase a man SA'd me, It's crazy how we can't trust men enough to leave our daughters at their house for the night. You can call me sexist but when i was talking to a 15 year old boy, me and this other dude asked him what he would do if someone got Sa'd, He said laugh at them and blame the victim. It's sad really just how much boys can get away with because of the phrase "Boys will be boys".
