⟶ ⟶ ᵐᵃʸ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ˡᵒᵍᵍᶦⁿᵍ ᵒⁿ… ︶︶ playing ︶︶ [i forgive you - @lovemayy] {1:17} ━━━━●───── {3:24} ︶︶︶︶︶︶︶︶︶︶ ⊹ ₊ ꕤ ᶜᵒⁿᵗᵉⁿᵗˢ ᵒᶠ ⁿᵒᵗᵉˢ ᵃⁿᵈ ᶜʳᵉᵈᶦᵗˢ ˢᵉᶜᵗᶦᵒⁿ ꕤ ₊ ⊹ ~ words of ‘i forgive you’ ~ desc/backstory to the poem. ︶︶︶︶︶︶︶︶︶︶ ⊹ ₊ ꕤ ᶜʳᵉᵈᶦᵗˢ ꕤ ₊ ⊹ ꕤ proj ⟶ original poem by @lovemayy ꕤ thumb ⟶ @lovemayy ꕤ desc ⟶ parts from @coastelle- ︶︶︶︶︶︶︶︶︶︶ content warnings! - themes of vi0lence. - themes of death. ︶︶︶︶︶︶︶︶︶︶ ˡᶦⁿᵏˢ / ʷʰᵉʳᵉ ᵗᵒ ᶠᶦⁿᵈ ᵐᵉ: ᵐᵃᶦⁿ/ᵇᵒᵒᵏ ᵃᶜᶜ ⟶ @books-with-may ᵇᵒᵒᵏᶦˢʰ ˡᶦⁿᵏˢ: ᵒᶠᶠᶦᶜᶦᵃˡ ᵃᶜᶜ ⟶ @bookish-official ᵇᵒᵒᵏᶦˢʰ ˢᵗᵘᵈᶦᵒ: https://scratch.mit.edu/studios/36772415/
{ please read the content warnings in the instructions } “i am a flower” ⊹ ₊ ꕤ ʷᵒʳᵈˢ ꕤ ₊ ⊹ i hate that i feel angry at God, at you. i hate that all this pain, that it’s something i’m supposed to feel. i hate that your gone but i know it’s good you didn’t stay, and as much as it hurts me, i have to say; i am feeling… better. i still cry, i still want to punch the world in the face, right in the crook of its eye, but i want to punch it less, which is a step going forward. i know this journey would’ve been quicker if i hadn’t ignored that pain, and the dread, and if i’d let myself feel it all instead and i hate that i miss you and i wish i could just move on. its not that simple. because, nothing in this world has broken me like the silence you left behind. i cant hear that your sorry, but i forgive you, not that you need to be forgiven, none of this was your fault but in order to stop the anger, calm the storm, i need to place the blame on someone who can’t hear me blaming them at all. so i forgive you, for everything that happened. and i hope now, my anger can calm and form into happiness. ︶︶︶︶︶︶︶︶︶︶ ⊹ ₊ ꕤ ᵇᵃᶜᵏˢᵗᵒʳʸ ꕤ ₊ dealing with grief can be a long process, and at the start of this poetry collection when i was organising the order the poems are in, i realised that it’s okay for the last poems to feel blunt and frustrating. i don’t love this poem, in fact it’s probably my least fave in the collection but it portrays the message i want it to well enough. (dw, the last poem has a little *healing* tone) i wrote this poem to process the emotions of anger and grief i felt a while after my grandad passed away. i felt angry that the world treated him badly and that he didn’t do anything about it. i felt angry he didn’t try to change himself (there’s a personal explanation i don’t want to share to this - i’m not a bad person lol) so i hope this poem encapsulates that <3 bye luvs!
