tw: b100d, d3@+h, gr13f, p@1n stuff like that okay hi. im still slightly grieving fli but im feeling a bit better abt it bc time ig idk. but uh here's her death project/rp or whatever. so out of brackets is just normal and [in brackets] is Fli's thoughts or whatever so here we go Flickerstorm rose to her paws, feeling different. [whats happening?] flower let out a breath and padded out of the den [i dont know if its good or bad] butterfly moved towards the elders den and went into that secret spot [mom, this is the special place you showed me. but it couldnt compare to you.] she smiled a bit, remembering her mom [the canopy. i remember. i think i was jealous of canopykit being named after something so special.] tears came down her face [she showed me how special i was. Nie-Nie, i love you.] flick sat down and looked up [and then i met otto, who was so sweet and goofy. he put flowers in my fur, and he gave me a nickname that made me feel more special] she rose and walked back into the middle of camp she looked around camp [why do i have such a bad feeling?] butterfly blinked away tears [like its the last time im ever going to be home] Flick moved outside, slowly [everything's hurting] she left camp and continued walking, not even thinking about it [where am i even going?] butterfly continued padding in a familar direction [i know im leaving home, but i feel like im going where im meant to be] flower reached her destination and sank to the ground [why am i here?] flower gazed around at butterfly surrounds. She was at the Splishy Splashy Pond. flower moved to the water's edge and rested flower head on butterfly paws. [this is where i became mates with Ani,] tears flowed from her eyes and dripped into the water [im sorry Ani, i never wanted to leave you like this] flower took a shaky breath [i loved you so so much, and you were everything to me. i never wanted you to hurt, i wanted your love, and i wanted you to be happy] she closed her eyes and sobbed [i wanted you] she rose and began walking again [i still dont know where im going] flower stopped again and sat down. [Ace, this is where we always trained.] flower blinked again, trying to stop crying [i loved training with you. i hate myself for not spending more time with you. you were my favorite sibling, and the best one i could ever ask for.] she looked up at the sky [you cared for me so much and i never showed how much i loved and cared for you. im sorry Ace, i wish i could've been better but i hope you can be happy and find someone better than me, someone more worthy of you.] Lili closed her eyes and thought of Crowkit [im sorry little one, that I have to leave you all alone. i know what its like to have everyone who loves you leave you. but i hope youll be okay anyway. youre strong and a fighter, you have this little Crow.] Then flower own kits floated into butterfly mind [im sorry Pea, that i barely got to show you my love. im sorry Dazza that i left you so soon. im sorry Wish that i never got to meet you.] Flicker's eyes opened and she tried to get up. she stumbled. Fli pulled herself up and made flowerself go to the Splishy Splashy pond again. when she got there, butterfly collapsed at the water's edge. [i.... i cant move] she stared at her wounds, b100d pooling out of them, disbelievingly [wh-what happened?] flower couldn't wrench her gaze away. [am i dying?] at the thought, Lili froze. she dropped her head down on her paws. [im dying alone] Fli shook flower head fiercely. [im not alone. i might not have anyone here with me that i can see, but i have so many cats who love me who are there in my heart. ] a sinking feeling in her heart came [momma, im sorry. i did bad things... im not going to see you or mom in the stars, but i want you to know i love you and that will never change.] a weight felt lifted. [all those i loved and will love, momma, mom, Ace, Ani, Crowkit, Wishkit, Dazza, Pea, Nie-Nie, Creek, Goldi, Talon, Trout, Tori, Peace, Sundew, Robin, Otto, Quail, Dove, and Fig. Fig, my best friend. im sorry. you, who was there for me when i was little and scared, there when the bad happened, there for me to cry to, there to protect me. ill forever miss you. you and all of those who i loved. im sorry.] then she rested flower head down, closed her eyes, gently smiled and went to sleep for the last time. butterfly last. peaceful. sleep.
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