Update: I gave up, we no more Later Update: my fault, I’m insane, I hope he’s happy with his new gf fr fr, she’s so sweet Sorry bout the rant for anyone who sees it but ISTGGGGGG I can’t with this, I’ve never dealt with a man so flipping confusing. A talking stage has never given me so much stress, I’m constantly having mood swings i swear. I’ll be like OMG, HES PERFECT. HES SO CUTE to I CANT DO THIS, IM DONE. HES A BAD PERSON. … I LITERALLY CANT WITH THE MOOD SWINGS. This guy is either playin me becuase he got hurt in his last relationships (which I know bout) or he’s too scared to act normal cuz he did tell me, “my red flag is I take things fast so ima slow things down this time. That’s why I haven’t told you things I would have told you already.” LIKE WHAT DOES THAT MEANNNNN???? and he never told me. HES KILLING MEEEE!!!! AND what’s worse is I have to deal with my ex who’s a complete peice of crap! But thank gosh I don’t have that class with him anymore, just hope I don’t see him at the gym. OH YEAH! And ima go to the gym with this other guy (cuz he’s a big gym dude and I like the gym too) and ngl idk what ima do with him cuz this guy can lift twice my body weight so idk homosapians. AND I CANT JUST CUT IT OFF LIKE I WOULD DO ANY OTHER GUYYYY!!! I like him too much!!!! From the first day I saw him I was like, “Dang….that guy is fine as heck. But he’ll never go for me.” So I dated my ex, (that went SO well, u can tell by how much I hate him now) and this other guy told me (we are gonna call him coffee). So Coffee told me that he had thought I was cute from the moment he saw me but he’s shy, (which is true, he’s hecka introverted), and then I started dating my ex so he couldn’t do anything. This guy man, I can’t, I literally can’t. I’m trying to to just let it roll but idk guys, idk what to do anymore. We hardly text too cuz I feel like he’s dry sometimes and he hardly ever starts convos. We did have one rlly good convo a few days ago then back to dry, I’m like, wth man. But when I see him and person he never looks at me (he used to all the time before he confessed) or talks to me but when I ask him to hold my phone he smiles rlly big and my friend says he like lights up. I wish those girls didn’t play him cuz man, it’s making things difficult. And I’m scared too, I don’t wanna get hurt again. The things my ex did to me haunts me and I’m scared of it happening again. Tbh, if things don’t work out with this guy I’m not gonna date till collage and ima be hecka careful. He’s my last hope in the male race. Sportbikes are sm better than guys. Sorry bout the rant, this crap is just stressin me out sm and I can’t take it.
Art- me Rant-my annoying life Sorry, these stressors and other family and school problems is why I haven’t done much lately. The stress is messin’ with my head and making it heard for me to think or do anything at all. I can’t play my violin right, or draw right. Idk guys, I hate this. Everything is in shambles, my head is constantly fuzzy, I pick at my skin a lot more now and bite my nails. At least I got my hobbies, stuffed animals and bunny (I also thought he was gonna die cuz he got a gut problem and he’s old but he’s doin better)
