None HEEEY okay so a lot of y’all may turn me out this is gonna get long. You can disagree, but this isn’t to start anything. If you disagree and think I’m dumb, that’s a nice opinion keep it to yourself. Love y’all <3 Okay so it started when I…well was born ig. Got a dad and mom. Mom is Christian and dad is…well I always say he was confused. He had no clue but he DEFINITELY wasn’t Christian. We prayed every night and I had a baby beginner bible, but that is it. We didn’t go to church and all. 4th grade comes, and my world BLOWS UP. One month and I loose my bff since 1st grade bc she went insane (no, I’m serious she thought dolls were..nvm scratch is gonna ban me) school closed for Covid for a FULL YEAR and my parents divorced thst following weekend. I thought that God hated me and he didn’t care. I decided right then I hated God, but I kept that quiet. Summer before 7th grade my world died again. The past years had been arguments and confusion. That summer tho, my dad got arrested. He is in there till I’m 40 I thiiink so I don’t have to see him for a while (good thing trust me) I thought I was done and I’d never trust anyone. Well mom insisted on taking me to church and my thoughts went “why do I hace to where a dress? Why are these benches so hard? AND WHY DO THESE OLD PEOPLE TALK TO ME LIKE IVE ALWAYS KNOWN THEM?!” But then the music started playing. I love music, but this was…different. I felt like I was flying. It was just a different FEEL. And I was thinking why they were being weird. Like the old dude behind me sounds half dead and there are people with their hands in the air and that one lady on her knees. I thought “isnt that embarrassing??” Then I reaized, “they don’t care, that’s just how happy and joyful they are” I was going thru a lot and I needed that feeling. When I listened to the lesson, it was about the Israelites. They wandered in the forest for 40 years and they were always wishywashi with their faith. I realized I was like them, turning to God when things were good and hating him when it was bad. Wish I could say I got saved right there. I took my time, and didn’t get saved until that march. I wanted to make sure that I wasn’t jumping into something crazy or fake. The more I heard tho, I was more and more convinced. I couldn’t find any loopholes. They were honest, and said it wasn’t going to be easy but that there was always a light at the end of the tunnel. I needed that. I researched if this “creation story” was real, and the evidence is there. Noah’s arc, fall of Babylon, it’s all real. Scientifically proven. I am logical, and that reassured me. When I got saved, I was ready to accept that I sucked, but he doesn’t. Dad lied, cheated, and hurt us. But my Heavenly Father didnt.
Continue: SO?! So everything!! If you are struggling, feeling like there is no hope, God IS hope. God IS peace. Maybe you won’t always be happy and ready to take on the world, but you know what? God is all powerful and-proven by science-has done amazing things and will always be there. He continues to support us and carry us when we can’t walk. The other day, my mom and step dad were arguing, and I was in the backseat crying. I was praying “God, give them peace, give my brother peace, and if there is any left give me some.” Two minutes later, I was laughing hysterically. God literally filled me to the brim with peace and joy. He told me it would be alright and thst I’ve made thru tougher times and I could do this. When life feels hard, God is there. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. He loves you and died on the cross for you. Oh btw, did you know there are historical accounts from Rome (who was Christianity’s worst enemy for the first however long) that prove Jesus’s presence after his death? He is real. Alive. And all powerful. Thank you for listening XD
