edit: sorry for the constant reshares !! dear reader, this project might seem a bit spontaneous to some of you, but i really need to get it all off my chest (& off my desk). for me, scratch is an endless guilt cycle. i can be proud of my projects and my banners and how my profile looks, but when i close the tab, i feel sick to my stomach. i've been on and off scratch since i was 8 years old. now, i'm 16, and it's time to get a different hobby. i've had enough of the constant drama, toxicity, exclusions, and pressures to post. but, as i'm writing this, i still want to be here, even if it's for three more projects. and maybe that's because i've made some friends on here. you know who you are, and i appreciate you all for finding me and talking to me, even if only for a brief time. you've all inspired me, one way or another, and i'm so thankful for all of you. but i don't want to keep holding up a persona and pretend that it's authentically myself. i want to be a better person. i want to feel more instead of overthink. i want to be able to live my life and not distort it for a singular website. if that's what i want to happen, then leaving this site is what i'm supposed to do. as for contests or certain projects i said i'd do, i obviously won't be doing any of those. i'll probably check/respond to any messages for the rest of this week, but after that, i'll log off for good. i'm keeping my accounts up, but i won't come back this summer. if you see me online after this week, please tell me/remind me to go offline - i'm not sure still if i'll be back after summer or not but we'll see </3 well, i need to wrap this up. to everyone who's interacted with me once or more, thank you so much for everything you've done for me. i wish you all only the best in life. <3 love, elsie
