hey all, i’ve been wanting to write something like this since early september of last year, probably sooner – but i procrastinated. a LOT. i was so afraid that people would react badly, or immediately think that i would be killing off anenome or something of the nature. i want to preface this by saying that, no, i will not be killing anenome!!! I absolutely love my little man to death, nothing will be happening to him anytime soon!!! i’ve been feeling very detached from scratch recently. i think i just lost sight of the reason i originally re-joined scratch. about two years ago, when i had made this account, i had wanted to talk to new people so badly, to have fun and enjoy myself. i had so much fun seeing how tightly-bound the tfc community seemed to be, and i wanted so badly to be a part of that, too. but now – i don’t feel that sense of freedom anymore. i’m not really doing it for myself anymore, but more to show people that, yes, i still am dedicated to anenomedrift, that i am still active on here. i have gone nights without much sleep to try to finish a srp i’m writing for him, or to finish art for a project, even though i know i’d much rather be catching up on sleep, or doodling in my sketchbook. but i just want to do the things i love, really. my passions. i love drawing my silly little human characters, i love staying up late to read, i love listening to musicals like epic and hadestown, and so many more things i never got to share on here. i think i got so tangled up in making anenomedrift the absolute best character he could be, writing all the best plot i could conjure up for him, making sure that all my roleplay responses were top-notch and super detailed, that i stopped thinking about just having a little bit of fun with him, letting loose for a little bit. i still have finished roleplay starters from a month ago sitting in a google docs because i felt too drained to post them, because i dreaded starting yet another roleplay. and i rarely talk to anyone now on scratch – all my messages are either studio notifications (we all hate those lol) or more and more responses to roleplays, all piling up, one after another, for the past couple of months. spend hours pouring my heart into anenome has been preventing me from doing things that I really want to do on here, like joining swc again, or participating in other roleplays, because i know i'll get too overwhelmed with everything to do. so– thanks for coming to my ted talk everyone!! just kidding :,D i’ve decided the best option for me would be to start a new account. i’ll be posting everything i’ve always wanted to – human art, comic pages, whatever i’m working on! but i won’t be moving just yet!! this account will still remain active! i want a completely fresh start, so I’ll likely move once I’ve fully wrapped up anenomedrift’s story and gotten him to the age limit! in the meantime, i won’t be as active as i used to be, but i’ll still check in a few times a week, and i’ll keep working on anenome’s plot with srps (and hopefully the angel’s choir, tehe >:D) to keep his story going, just as usual! i just want everyone to know that i will never regret re-joining tfc. before anenome, i had the hugest art block of my life- i could barely get myself to lift up a pencil to draw even a single doodle. but after you all pushed me to keep posting projects, to even make 50 icons in one month for pride last year (never doing that again LOL), i finally rediscovered my passion for art, and im drawing every day now!! it makes me so happy when people tell me they love anenome, or that his character is so cool — seriously, you are all so amazing, and i’m so proud of what this account has become, even if it wasn’t exactly what i had envisioned at the start. so even though i may be starting to focus my attention on other projects and passions, i wont actually be leaving— just taking a small break. I’ll be here in case anyone wants to chat, or maybe even start another roleplay, you never know! :) ❤️ (psst!! i put some extra, kind of outdated(??) anenome doodles that i never ended up sharing in the backdrops of this project in case you want to check it out :D)
