Inactivity Explanation

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Hey everyone. As you may have noticed, I have been a lot less active lately. I deeply apologise for this, but I have been dealing with a lot in my personal life, and it's starting to pile up more than I wanted to admit. I have tried to keep checking Scratch, but it's become a lot less frequent, and I am sorry for those of you who have asked me things and haven't gotten a reply in days. This is on me. I am afraid that these gaps between replies will continue, as there is no magical fix for the things that are happening in my life. But Seeds of Truth is still active, and I am still updating the storages, but it will take longer. I will try my best to reply to you all when I have time, but if I'm being honest... It's getting hard. I am struggling. I feel like there's no time left in the day. And I think I hit my limit a long time ago, and just refused to admit it. I have tried to push through it, but it's becoming harder and harder. I am doing school work all day, plus my music ensembles, plus showjumping competitions, and everything else on top, and it's just becoming too much to try and balance all of that with Scratch. To put it into perspective for you: On Monday, I start school at 9am, but I get there at 8:30. I don't leave until 5pm due to music. Tuesdays, same starting time, I get out at 3:15pm, but then I have horse riding until maybe 6pm. Wednesdays, I don't get 1st break. I finish at 2:25pm but don't leave until 3:15 due to other commitments. Thursdays, I don't get out until 5pm, and as of lately, I haven't even gotten home until 10-11pm due to music commitments. Fridays, I don't get out until 5pm. Saturdays, I am at the stables from 8:30am until maybe 4pm, and that's me riding and tending to horses non-stop. Every second Sunday, I have showjumping competitions until sometime in July. I am at the stables by 6:30am, in freezing cold weather, and I don't leave until maybe 4-5pm. This is stressful for me, not going to lie. Because there's all of that, and then when I get home? I'm still not done. I have a bunch of schoolwork to finish or catch up on due to music taking over some of my class time, and on top of all of that? I am still expected to get As. This is an expectation I have set on myself, because to me, getting a C makes me feel like I failed. When I get a B? I know I could have done better. But all of this, plus personal home life? It's becoming too much. So I am sorry, but I will be less active here. I hope to change this soon, but please understand that I am juggling so many things right now that it feels like if I stop, I might fall apart. I don't mean to just dump all of this onto here, but I feel like no one really gets it. My family doesn't see it. My friends don't understand. All because every time they ask... I say the same phrase. "I'm fine." Well, I'm not. I have tried and tried and tried. It's never enough. For over a year I have told myself and others the same thing. "I'm fine." Like it's a shield. It feels like that shield has finally shattered. So I'm afraid I need to take some time to try and get everything together. I will be on during weekends. Sometimes during the week when habits kick in. But it will be less than before. I am sorry. But something has to change. And I promise I will become more active when I have things back together. But for now? This is how I need things. I can't let this get worse. Thank you all for understanding. Thank you for even reading this. - Trico