I like this song but couldn’t find it on scratch so- [lyrics] I created those around me though I don't know which is worse 'Cause playing god is funny til you have to choose who's dying first I became the thing I feared taking their lives in my hand My innocence had consequences that I still don't understand I was told that I was vital in the plan to save my life, so I promised mine in hopes I'd be the one holding the knife Our bodies are the vehicle, transporters of the soul I was young and bold and stupid in a six foot self dug hole Was I the only one to question anything they said? I take it back I'll follow till I fly or till I'm dead My immortal evolutionary traits are still intact, I am unapologetic for the sympathy I lacked I left my body back in California 'cause I'm weak Overdosed on phenobarbital, it's part of my mystique So in '97 I gave up the future I'd been raised to reject my human nature in the hopes that I'd be praised I thought SOS meant "save our souls" instead it meant -cause nobody came to help me when I told myself I quit I trusted blindly, was it wrong for me to latch on tight? Cause I didn't realize nettles stung and apples weren't all white Ignorance is bliss or maybe ignorance is bait cause I didn't deserve heaven but I'm standing at it's gate Was I the only one to question anything they said? I take it back I'll follow till I fly or till I'm dead My immortal evolutionary traits are still intact, I am unapologetic for the empathy I lacked I left my body back in Cali, I'm not bothered to return The taste of applesauce and Vodka aren't my main concerns Giving up is easy when the defaults to survive Cause a better life will only cost three quarters and a five I'll meet you in the promised paradise we often preach So I'd hope for liberation but that isn't what we teach My immortal evolutionary traits are still intact, I am unapologetic for the apathy I lacked I left my body back in San Diego, Santa Fe They could tell me - nonsense with the knowledge I'd obey
Song is heaven’s gate by Amelie Farren
