[TW: Meh audio, iff-y singing] I wrote the lyrics and recorded the audio (7. TIMES.) To clarify, it's the Player singing this NOT Kris. This is also COMPLETLY. PLATONIC. Anyways, uh, I can't say anything that's not spoiler-ly so- {SPOILERS FOR CHAPTER 4 BELOW, READ IF YOU DARE} I think this is my favorite song that Kris plays. This is based on one of my favorite scenes in chapter 4 when Kris plays the piano. Almost made me cry, and I started thinking about the whole dynamic between them and the Player. And honestly, Noelle's blog is... Surprisingly accurate. Thinking too much as long as your eyes are open. But with eyes closed... It feels personal. Dangit, I sound cheesy now, hah hah.
Full lyrics: Can’t say anything, you wouldn’t want me to. I can’t defend myself, I’m wrong to hurt you. I can’t excuse the things I've done. Started out fine, but then, it wasn’t fun. You’ll never know how much I care. I’ll never tell you, not in a million years. You’d never let me, and hey, that’s fair. The pain I brought only led to despair. We’re not friends. We never will be. As long as you’re happy, that’s fine with me. Even if I whine, cry, kick and scream. Even so, I don’t want to lose you. It all goes back to that ol’ damn waiting room. Maybe I should leave you be. But then, what will that mean for me?
