I dont understand this simple fact...I being the oldest child in my family of 9, 7 kids including me... I do almost everything for everyone in this house learning how to care for everyone even though i dont really have to do any of this. I talk to people friends that i have known for a very long time and apparently i can't have them and when i finally get to make a new friend they rip me away from them like im toy forgotten. Today i did everything I was told to do and my parents give me nothing while the other six kids get to have a phone an actuall phone mind you they never do anything and they clean a table and apparently they cleaned the entire house. Its one not fair just because I am practically a reminder of my own dad doesnt give anyone the right to throw me around like a peice of trash i Don't ask for much even I talk irl to only two people who have helped me get through the toughest of times and helped me out with so many things. Apparently good people in my life who are nothing but kind to me is a crime. Before i met these people I was forced into a friend group who was toxic and did things to people that I hated. No i didn't join them in a ny of it I simply got to watch from afar not being able to do anything because if i did something like them I probably wouldn't be the same person I am now. Then about two weeks ago a boy whos the same age as I am came over to my house. My parents are wanting me to "get to know him" Knowing that I can't do anything about it im forced into yet another thing that I can't control. I find no fairness in any of the things that they do to me and only me. I am told I am treated with fairness and kindness and equality when in reality I am just another maid to yet another group of people who are supposed to love their own daughter. But I have to act right to everyone show respect while i get none of the above...Why should I continue to fight for them if they continue to throw me around wipe their muddy feet on me like im a rug to step on. Sometimes I just want to be able to be me who I truley am not something I am not. Just because you don't support me dating girls alog with being a furry gives you no right to hate on me. I can't stand it and I just want out but no matter how many times I try to tell someone my problems im told their not valid and make no sense. No matter how many times I ended up getting the higher authorities involved in the amount of torture and pain ive been through since I was starting age of 7 im told that your just being delusional i hate it sooo much. Whats the point of having higher ups if they can't even do their job and protect the people who are needing the help. its stupid I am sorry to all of the people who are going through the same thing I am and I hope things get better for you as well..
