I'm starting to dissociate from reality and my body feels like it's not mine. I'm starting to have personality changes left and right where I'm kind one minute but then some sort of demon comes out of me and takes control . everyone thinks I'm a jerk and I'm.sorry i- I'm sorry I'm lying all the time I just don't like how I look and it makes me really upset and I'm sorry I'm yelling and getting defensive I don't know what's happening. I've been hallucinating so bad audibly and visually. I hear voices telling me to off myself and I just don't know what to do anymore It's like I'm possessed or something but it's not me. And I cant control it. Im forgetting things left and right like my own name and Im just tired of getting yelled at and abused. I've been a punching bag all my life and I'm just given up No one likes me not even my own family I'm just a mistake and I don't deserve anything. I'm not trying to guilt trip it was your choice to click on and read this lol. I'm just saying what's on my mind. Please just leave me be. I can't believe you would go low enough as to get with my ex... I would never do that to you. And it hurts so bad... It hurts more than a knife to my stomach ever could. I only got another gf because she's so kind and nice and I'm genuinely in love with her but...hhh I guess I'm just rambling at this point Ever I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything I did and I love you /plat please just don't think this is ur fault alright. Just keep being awesomeeee. I hope it works out with your relationship situation<3 I know I'm probably blocked and that's okay
