I don’t feel myself. I try to stand up to / those / people. but I can’t. I try to be myself but how come there’s so many other mes? it’s like I have clones. one, two, three, four. it’s funny I know most of them are friends but it doesn’t feel right. I want ME they have THEM. why? out of all people to “ become “ it’s me? I can’t express interests or ANYTHING at this point because they steal it. “ gatekeeper! “ I know, don’t remind me. I know I gatekeep, but it’s my problem not yours. “ why can’t people have the same interests as you? “ they can. just don’t let me know. “ rude, don’t you think? “ I don’t care. they deserve it, don’t you agree? “ just tell them to stop? “ can’t. they’ll tell me that I’m rude. I’ve lost enough friends- I don’t even care if these ones are fake I need them to feel /normal/. . . . . . stop it. be yourself. I’m taken by me. your taken by you.
