Just a little check in in case any if you care :/ This box will be an actual report on me personally, mental health and allat, and the box below will just be what i’ve been working on. Credit to bbz for the thumbnail. And Primal Xenolith for the song. (Ran out of space in the box below, had to put here) I’m really into Subnautica (modded) at the moment and it brought a new character with it, a character who’s existed for a while but was missing a few prices, and Subnautica kinda filled them in (I still need much more) Hey people. Been I while since i’ve talked to you guys, and it’s been very hard to keep up with everything, including scratch and other socials. I’m going into Highschool, taking all honors and playing 3 sports along with many clubs, and it’s already overwhelming. One of the sports has summer training, and whenever I go (since i’m new) I always feel like i’m not good enough, ect. But i’ll get through It. My anxiety is getting much worse, as i’ll snap at people randomly and get irritated easily. That combined with relationship troubles brings my usual bubbly, fun personality into a quiet, calculating, scared personality that always questions everything and thinks everyone is talking about them. I’m happy I still have good friends. Just a lot of anxiety, a lot of overthinking. I know (think) everyone isn’t talking about me or whispering about me behind my back but I still question everything I do due to a few people who have ruined my life (or tried bc obviously i’m too perfect to be ruined) but I at least have a solid few that I can go to if I need, and then a bunch more who are js friends. So i’ll be good. Something very important to me: either due to the length of a hiatus i took from it or the anxiety or the family loss, or a combination of all of it I’m loosing my drawing ability. That’s why they’re so far apart. I can’t do it anymore I run out of ideas too easily or the ideas come and i’m too intimidated or I dont know where to start or I just forget how to. I can no longer draw basic human structure I can no longer draw animals I’m loosing my touch and it really scares me I’ll keep trying. (Don’t wanna ruin the dark mood but I WILL be drawing the character below :>)
(Work in progress) Blitz, Bl1tz, or Ultrablitz, also know as Subject 0. He is the first and only survivor of the Red Plague protocol. Also a survivor of planet 4546B, it is reasoned that since the specimen has had contact with the plague before, or, more importantly, the water of the planet, the plague steadied through his body and enhanced its durability. Mainly his speed. It’s physically impossible to move at the speed that he does, he must have some way to stop time, or else his own legs should be destroyed. Humans can not process that amount of speed and strength. Report: Whenever contacted by samples from Planet 4546B’s water (shortened to Sample 0 for this report), the area contacted will emit a red glow from under the skin, and quick flashes of red will follow the veins to the brain. The eyes will also glow red for the same amount of time. 5 types of stimuli have been utilized: -Any interaction with any water will allow the subject to grow more powerful as the subject pleases, to a certain extent -A stim injection of Sample 0 will cause the subject to grow unstable, remaining conscious but fractured from reality. This causes the subject’s speed and strength to grow even higher from its overaverage level, making it highly effective in combat. This stage is where cosmetic changes start to take effect, as the subject’s eyes will glow red and veins will flash red randomly at random places. - A stim injection of Enzyme 42 will cause the subject to stabalize, regaining full consciousness and control of speed and power. Highly recommended to keep a stim when experimentation on subject in case of emergencies - Any direct contact with raw Subject 0 (meaning the red plague has not been eradicated from it) will stimulate the same symptoms of stimuli 2 - A stim injection of raw Subject 0 will cause the subject to lose almost all consciousness and lose essential all stability. The subject will also begin tissue transformation. 4 sharp tendril arms will grow out of the subject’s back, which can be used for locomotion and in combat. In addition, the subject can create short pikes out of the top of its wrists, presumably used exclusively for combat. The tendrils and pikes are made of plagued flesh, resembling dark red raw flesh with sharp edges constructed of unbreakable bone. The subject’s skin will grow darker, and patches of skin will grow plagued. The subject also enters a focused state, completely silent and calculating everything before it happens. Shadows formed by the subject will grow darker and unpredictable, multiplying and/or fading, or shifting randomly. The subject’s appearance will also be unpredictable, randomly fading or duplicating, hard to focus on. In this state, any life forms in the subject’s presence will begin hallucinations. At this stage, the subject will gain the ability to distort electrical fields and will often shut off lights in its vicinity. Enzyme 42 is no longer effective. — DANGER — ANY direct contact with raw Red Plague will overtake the subject, giving it much greater symptoms of stimuli 5 and transforms the subject into the Ultrablitz. This form can also be triggered when the subject is on the verge of death. This hyperaware beast is not controlled by the subject. Its speed and strength increases to an incomprehensible level. The appearance of the Ultrablitz is… confusing. All accounts of the subject in this form are different, the only similarities being the tendrils, and an inescapable factor of fear when in its presence. The fight or flight reflex seems to be overridden and only allows oneself to run or hide immediately. Only the strongest of specimens seem to have a choice, however, the few who chose to fight are no longer alive for questioning. Enzyme 42 is not effective. “I am not afraid of what comes of what comes next. My ascension. Perhaps it seeks to destroy me, to consume me into its hivemind as it does with all life it contacts. But that would be a waste, and it knows. It comes to me not to kill. But to bow. Pathetic. B̶̛̙̺̓̓̆͐o̷̖̘̼̞̓w̴͈̻̟͔͗́̒ in̶ th̵e p̷̝̱̗̔ȓ̶̠͕̥͈̀̿ĕ̶̟̳͉͋̊͜ͅs̵̙̗̼̦̈́̊e̷̪̗̯̋̆̿n̸̡̼͔̙͇̔̆c̴̥͙͚̝̼͑̇͒͝ḙ̸͒͛͒͝ o̴f̴̞̈́ a̴͉̐ G̴̨̛͙̯̱͍̻̩͙̠̭͋̎͗̅̽̌̃͌͗͗̿̊̓͘Ơ̸̢̧̺̼̬̰͉̙͓̗͔̒͌͜͝D̸̢̨̯̙̝̼͉̥͌́̽͛̍͌̃̐̀̋͆́͘” Blitz awakens into Ultrabl1tz, fully conscious and in control, but much more powerful, even more than the Ultrablitz. He takes his own form that isn’t distorted, a large creature somewhat resembling a Hemogoblin Shark (search up for reference) with large tendrils and pikes, along with a large spike out of its forehead. It has an exoskeleton of plagued bones and the body is fully made of plagued flesh. With no visible eyes, Ultrabl1tz can sense movement and is as hyperaware as the Ultrablitz. Enzyme 42 can be effective, if the subject allows. Ultrabl1tz can only be triggered by extreme emotions and pain, and is used for combat. WILL add weaknesses for roleplays, but as my own character, Blitz is the true apex predator.