guys. um. LET ME TELL YOU THE WHOLE STORY. i started out as a small account based of a 'gacha' ( i was 9 be serious ok. ) series like elemental evergreen by @Phroggybole . they were my idol. then it backfired ( ofc, be real i ant no director or producer.) I still tried though, looking for voice actors, when i found accounts, that did both s-pop and voice acting. That was my first exposure to s-pop, in nov 2024. Meanwhile, i was trying to be 'aesthetic' and fit in. ( im so ashamed of myself now.) i made my first few banners on that acc within a few weeks of me joining. i found ' ⸝⸝ kp↻p ⺌market ੭୧' (https://scratch.mit.edu/studios/35945577/activity) i decided to join. oh boy i took the words 'can you help spread the word about this studio?' seriously. I spent DAYS advertising ( thats how much free time i have. ) about the studio. I met @galaxystarley, my first friend when advertising. (ILYSM LEA) I also met @kikikura my second friend that way. I asked @galaxystarley how to make banners, how to be aes, a lot of things, im so sorry for lea bc i must of been super annoying. My first cover, supernova - aespa, (https://scratch.mit.edu/projects/1109538017) was on Dec 11, 2024. I continued making covers and posting trashy banners, until at a point i made @-xs3cret--xsets- to make sets, i mean the user is *vomit emoji* and the sets are the same. i mean i kind of improved, and i made a lot of friends on that acc. ( not more than @i2enha thou-) i met, jasmine @jasibonette, subeen @swborn_oh, and safiya, . and i am STILL friends with them. i improved at lot on that acc in terms of 'aestheticness', as my banners were better, and i had actually symbols. I got more well known in s-pop, but still about a little more than now. Then I had the wild idea to move to , a small secret acc I had created. I decided to go with it, and posted a moving project. When I was at , it wasn't a really good time of my life bc I felt like i was walking on eggshells the whole time. And then i had 'camp'. It was the worst time of my life. I came back, expected a hi, or i missed you from my friends. NOT A SINGLE MESSAGE. My friends just abandoned me, and my family doesn't understand, and the one place i thought someone would care, well nothing. I felt even more distant to my irl friends day by day. My best friend ( irl) had found an replacement for me. Even on my graduation, (5th) I spent my day sulking. I dont know what I am, or why i am like this. Maybe i shouldn't of been a good friend, or cared about people, or shy, or talking a lot less than others, or passionate about songwriting and singing. But anyways, this isnt about me. During i improved in singing a bit and made a few projects, which only had 5 views, and 1 or 2 comments. a few of my projects - then i had my raffle for 80+ ! i had made a small account called '' i decided to include it in the raffle, ( BTW only 3 people participated in the raffle soo- (thats how much unpopular i was.) It was a small acc, and back at the time i had the CRAZY goal of 115 follows. ( GUESS WHAT I HIT 200 follows ! ) I moved later to that acc bc i was bored ! ( yes i move every 1 month lolol ) I decided to make posts, the og 2 were songs that i made up in my head after school- okay EVERYTHING has to have a start. then, i decided to post a REAL project, F2u icons- STILL proud of that banner! though it can improve. MY FIRST VIRAL project, 85 views... and 26 hearts, 5 stars. Honestly was my best acc so far, not even can beat it ! I am so thankful for all the appreciation, and praises everyone gave me, and i am so grateful and thankful. Anyways, moving on to my move to . Why i did it? bc i felt like i needed something different bc i was at a experimental point in my life. then i posted something really bad. I deleted almost everything, yet i came back for it. I realized how much i need this. i love everything and everyone, but i cant do this anymore. No one really needs me. Im just a waste of space. That friend thats the extra, the imaginary friend that disappers once its job is done. i wont be on anymore, ill only be active on bc the program. i have found my passion, songwriting. I guess i joined scratch because i wanted to find something i loved to do, something i was good at. now that ive found it, scratch has no point. I mean i care about my friends, almost everyone on this platform. And scratch is getting really boring as well. s-pop, well axis is on the point of ia. UPDATE: july 6: safiya finished lines, but idrk if this group is going to gain fame or anything. im not even known in s-pop so idk if anyone would really care if i left, the problem is that i dont want to disband dear world, Honestly i'm so tired for this stuff, and i shouldn't of made the commitment. ilysm to my all friends, close friend notes inside.
