"what if it doesn't work out??" ok but what if it does...? hey y'all. it's cari. and wow... it's prob the last time i'm actually gonna write that, huh...? yep. i'm leaving. after going on and off, taking breaks, getting addicted again, and the cycle continuing. I have finally decided to step back. for good. I've been on scr for almost 3 years... I was 12 in 7th grade. now? now i'm 15 going into 10th grade. that's crazy to me. y'all really have been part of my life for a long time. that being said, most of y'all (except for like poppy, fritzi, and rainy haha) know me from @all-american-girl, where I started as cari. the girl who was supposed to only be there to join sgt for fun and gain confidence with covers. dang it escalated didn't it lmao?? now i'm in the FINALS for sgt, I didn't even think I would really make it that far. and i've lost sm motivation, idk if i'll be posting my final cover... and even tho i've done sm since my first audition, I still look at that competition as the reason i've stayed as long as I have. for better or worse. I mean, I was so happy to not only get the golden buzzer for auditions, but pass every. single. round. and now at the finals, paired against some of the most talented scratchers, I want everyone to know i'm js so honored to be there anyways. and I'll check in for the results at the very least, u can count on it. okkkk so idk what i'm supposed to say tbh. I don't wanna sugar coat this anymore than I already have. i'm leaving for me. so I can finally start living. so I can be an american teen. an all-american girl, if u will (help this is all so cringe brooo) <3. I want to stay up all night laughing with my friends for no apparent reason, we're js sleep deprived and high on life. I want to wear sundresses and take photos in a field at sunset for fun. I want to try on prom dresses for no reason knowing I can't afford it. I want to wear my same jeans a boots that I wear in nashville that I do when I ride shotgun. I want to live. I want to sing. I want to experience being a teenager. I love y'all. like truly, madly, deeply love each and every one of y'all. so say you'll remember me. standing in a nice dress, staring at the sunset. remember me in liam, maybe. or tay, or country music, or anything. I want there to be something that randomly makes u remember that I had the time of my life with you. remember me in music. my music. maybe one day i'll log on again to tell y'all to stream my new single on all streaming platforms. or just to say thank you, I've made it. help ew i'm actually so cringe but I feel like it's fine it's my farewell proj oh well lmaooo remember all the little things. don't you let them go cuz you and me got a whole lotta history. the moment I knew? idk tbh... it js kinda happened... I love you, i'm sorry. say you'll see me again, even if it's just in your wildest dreams... ok ok there were a lot of lyrics in this goodbye letter. can u find them all? no prize lol sorry but I thought it would be fun this isn't supposed to be fun tho it's supposed to be saddd ahhhhhh goodbye, goodbye, goodbye... you were bigger than the whole sky... you were more than just a short time... ok seriously. now I'm done. I have 2 songs that will play and a shuffle of random farewell lyrics from some of my fav artists. there's a lot, could of added more, chose not to. the two songs are "it's time to go" and "long live", both by taylor swift and I feel are very fitting. I also have notes for all my friends and even if u aren't my friend still click "see inside". there r a LOT of notes and I'm posting this w only a very short amount done so if u don't have one yet pls be patient w me, it'll be there soon. the notes are in alphabetical order so scroll until u see ur name if u think ur close enough for a note. sorry if I didn't write one for u </3 ily cari bears... bye y'all... ily always, cari <3 >>>> all my accts as cari in order I think? (og main) (ewwww stinky acct tbh I swear i'm not one of those 12 y/o maddox fan girls I have an excuse and don't listen to him that muchhhh) (set acct, prob most active if ever but prob not lol) (yes, I was that baddie. rip bro </3) (rip that acct it was cute while it lasted) (yayyyy current acct that didn't get banned haha!) (hehe matching w ) my stan accts cuz y'all r girlbosses they should reveal themselves to meee (og stan haha) (help I love this user sm cuz I could be wrong but I feel like it was when I always had "in l-o-v-e w liam" in my b/w cuz of the song "I would" and the fact that I literally am in love w payno lol but yes the pfp too ahhhh) og cari accts (queen. diva. baddie. girlboss.) (vroom vroom) (hehehe) (this one surprised me that it existed lmao) bye fr now <3333 >>>> "15 years, 15 million years" </3
final message for y'all >>>> this is js smth that gen pmo :') personally, idk abt y'all, but I am SO protective over my music taste and the artists I like. it doesn't matter if i'm an og or js joined the fandom I REALLY don't wanna hear u bash them. like i'll start w the thing I see most commonly and it's the less annoying but still irritating part of this thing that pmo is ppl js on their own prf comments coming after artists they don't like. like ok, ur not PERSONALLY attack me, but if I stumble across ur prf and see "istg [artist name] actually sucks idk how anyone could be a fan tbh" I might js crash. LIKE GIRL ACTAULLY WHO ASKED?! help I don't wanna sound like im attacking anyone THIS IS NOT DIRECTED TO ANYONE IN GENERAL I SWEAR!! ok anyway so that's annoying, but here's what gets me. if I'm on my own prf or in a studio or smth like it doesn't really matter wth im doing and I say something like "i'm js so excited for [artist name]'s new song!!" and u have the AUDACITY to reply w "girl how the heck do u like them they're a terrible person and their music sucks..." like hello? what do u expect me to say??? "oh yeah since u hate them I should give up the decade I have loved them w my ENTIRE BEING and hate them too"????? GIRL NO!! and look, I have artists I dislike or genres I don't care for, but never have I EVER attacked anyone for it or put it somewhere public in a place a fan of that artist could see. I keep that crap to myself. and I expect that too. js don't type the words ur thinking. and if someone asks me "hey! do u like [artist name]?? im a huge fan!!" and I don't like the artist HECK NO I'M NOT GONNA GO "actually I can't STAND them! their music sounds like crap and they r ugly as crud nuggets!" NOOOOOO!! STOPPPP!! the appropriate way to answer is "hey! that's so cool! i'm not really into them ngl :'). but I do like [enter artists names]!! do u like any of those?" like YES!! find ways to BOND!! don't bash ppl abt their music taste cuz that hurts A LOT to me cuz music is my escape, my passion, my ENTIRE WORLD!!!! like OMGGGG lemme be! and like I get when it's like friends goofing off to annoy each other like that's dif as long as y'all both know ur not tryna actually hurt each other's feelings. ok after this LONG rant, I hope y'all get the message. sorry about that!!
