i... im not ok... yk??... i... give up from living... im not gonna hurt myself.. but... the happy teenager soul inside this body... swap w/a lil innocent kid who cries over small things... many many MANY ppl told me to change appearance... voice... body... personality... the way of how childish i am...im tired... im so tired... i just wanna vanish ffrom this world... my grades are really down... my school bullied me for 3 whole f- years... my friends from there are fake... they made me cry... hate myself... idk anymore... i have tears block so i cant cry, except when panic attack or anxiety or even when yells/tells me to shut up... i wanna give up... im tired of living... im tired... tired... i just... i need help... but who am i telling this?my parents? nope, they are gonna say: oh its alr... they are just joking!!, my irl friends? nope, they are gonna say: dear (dead name)... we are telling the truth ur theone who's lying... my psicologist? for what? for she trys to help but nothing works?... for my online friends? nope, prob they are gonna say: *hugs* we love u... but ur annoying, no offense... idk anymore what to do... i wanna d!e... i wanna disappear... that's it... just a stupid vent... haha... im a joke...
