koirapids had only wanted to protect his clan. so why did it hurt? he had been a kit. abandoned with no parents in sight. huddled for warmth near his siblings. a mossclan warrior had taken them and let them become part of the clan. from that moment koirapids was set to defend. protect. did that mean destruction too? destructing himself? the cats around him? what he could’ve been..? he lay helpless on the floor. scarlet stained on his fur. he had to protect his kits. miracle. a single tear rolled down his cheek. this was it. his wonderful, unborn kits. they would never even get a chance to meet him. and miracle.. oh, how she would be devastated. he didn’t want to go. but he had to. because he had set himself so much on a single goal he forgot about the rest. about being a good father. being a good mate. being a good friend. monsoonflash had liked him yet he rejected him. so had pumpkinpaw yet he rejected her. he knew he didn’t regret it. it was what had to be done. so why was this happening to him? was it the anger of monsoon, coming in like a tropical tidal wave? was it the sadness in miracle’s eyes? like the cloud’s tears? or was it just.. his fault? koirapids took labored breaths, clutching on to his red flower. “I’m sorry, ruby.” he sobbed. “I’m sorry, mira. I love you to the stars and back.” “I’m sorry monsoonflash. I only wanted to follow my heart.” he said between tears. “I’m sorry peahenstar and tsunamiflash. I should’ve been better.” “I’m sorry.. I’m sorry..” he cried out, belly rising and falling slowly until it finally sped to a stop. and the night was over as the stars seemed to cry and the water seem to shake against the riverbed while the crickets fell silent.
