Okay rant, if you don’t wanna hear then get out. Yeah okay— SOO- oh idk where to start. Umm yea the freebies thing- no I’m not getting burnt out, it’s just I feel like it’s not good enough. I don’t really like my art style, and I’m practicing EVERY DAY. I’m getting feedback and stuff (tysm for that) and watch so many vids on OC design and anatomy, but I still think it sucks. I feel like no one wants it so much, they’re just here bc.. well, free OCs! I’m so alone. I am a Christian, so I know I’m never alone, but I’m human. Even Jesus knows I need to have irl friends to walk with in the faith and to just… yk… spend time together and BE FRIENDS. I think my irl friends don’t know ANYTHING about me, and I can’t share stuff with them bc 1. We’re not close enough and 2. They don’t even ask- they don’t ask if I’m okay, or what I like doing. They’re not bad friends, it’s just I feel so alone. I have exactly 0 friends on scratch, since they’ve all left like 1-2 years ago- and one of my friends who has left scratch is now leaving my group (for personal reasons, not her fault.) and it means I won’t get to spend time with her- and I feel we might fall apart- it hasn’t happened yet but I’m SO scared. And a little side rant for the cherry-on-top, my injury isn’t getting better (it’s been SIX MONTHS, MY GOSH, HALF OF THE YEAR). I’ve missed my team’s championships- and that hurts- cuz I’ve never won such a huge league as that. And… I don’t know how long it is until my sprain is healed and it hurts. It hurts more inside, knowing I won’t be able to play. It sucks, I hate this. Well uh, I’m gonna continue making freebs (I haven’t lost motivation, ugh) but like, yeah. Nooo, I’m not wallowing in self pity or depression- ugh, ppl overuse that word sometimes- just- come on, there are ppl with WORSE lives and they’re the actual once who DESERVE to call themselves depressed- just stop, STOP CALLING YOURSELF “DEPRESSED” WHEN YOURE SAD! It’s so annoying. I’m not depressed, I’m not self-pitying… just, sad. I think like 5 people are actually gonna be reading this.. so… I’m tired and I’m gonna go disappear,, and retrun later for the freebies taht nobody cares abt. Bye.
Tysm to… oh, nobody. Welp cya :) P.S. if you’re planning to be mean and inconsiderate, then please GET OUT- Please, I have enough to deal with. That’s my one single request. Please. Thank you.
