remember how i told you i was confident i could get rid of the addiction in december 2024? well, obviously i let you down and didn't. i said i would make things right and change, but i haven't changed one bit. if the addiction never happened, none of you would've been exposed to the utter scum i was. now i'm just weak and i can't push through. not for my family, my friends, my crush, or even myself. no matter who i quit for, it always manages to come back and overwhelm me. i don't feel depressed or angry anymore. i just feel darkness. i give you a thousand apologies for being garbage. i hate the addiction, but whether i quit or not, i don't know if i'll ever be human again. i can't forgive myself for what i did, and while it's the unchangeable past, it will always affect the present and future one way or another. i don't expect your forgiveness, it's far too late for that. i just want you to understand that i regret everything i've done to harm you and would do anything to undo it.
music in this project: Red Hot Chili Peppers - Under the Bridge
