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so... hey!! its me! i wanna talk about a few things, just because ive realized something, and thats that i dont really want to keep up with scratch anymore. ive had a great time on scratch; ive made friends that i want to keep, but also my interests are changing, and well... scratch is not the place i want to invest the most time in. what i mean is: im not as interested in creating this form of art anymore, and i have other things i would much rather do. i take an incredibly long time to draw, its tiring, i have time limits, other things take so much time too. i dont hate art at all. i loveeee looking at peoples stuff and seeing peoples' creativity, i just dont want to be a creator of this form of art anymore. i think ive been feeling like i have an obligation to stay on scratch and keep drawing for other people, like for doing payments or trades or commissions. or like, "wow youre so good!" so i would feel bad for saying i want to step away from scratch and art. but honestly, i dont think art was ever supposed to be something serious for me. its always been a struggle to draw- not just like how drawing is difficult, but ive had many roadblocks. and this isnt some thing where im giving up on my dreams; actually i dont think art was ever really my dream. let me name the other priorities for you: violin, for one, and music in general. i love my music and im so excited to hopefully be able to take it more seriously, even hopefully do it for school. then, school, because since i draw so slowly i can never keep up with art, music, and school lol. but the most important one is i'm growing in my faith. i'm learning more, i'm learning to be bolder, and i LOVE IT. i feel so alive. i dont know how to explain it, other than i love God, i love Jesus, and i am so sold out for Christ. and i love it. but often it's hard to be a Christian in the art community, just because especially so many digital artists on scratch are so against God and everything. i used to be scared of being judged for my faith, for doing something wrong and making everyone hate me. and that wasnt a healthy place to be in. just. ive had great experiences, but this isn't my place. i love the friends ive made here on scratch and in the art community. but art isnt the thing that brings me the most fulfillment, or most joy, or most security. and scratch honestly isnt the friendliest to my type of people, either. even in just the normal art community people get blocked, reported, suspended, and projects get taken down for seemingly no reason. i dont need to live under an unnecessary stress that being the person i am now could get my account blocked. so im pretty much stepping back from scratch! ill probably check on occasionally, maybe even post random stuff for my enjoyment lol. ill do my best to keep in contact with the friends ive made here!!!! please please understand nothing ive said here or otherwise changes the fact that i want to keep being friends with you. i love you guys and ive had such a great time with all of you!!!! <3333 maybe eventually ill be able to get other websites or apps even just for talking, so i wont have to use just scratch LOL. but yeah! thank you, whoever is reading this, for putting up with my inactivity and just lack of art in general lol. i hope this explains some things if anyone was wondering. for any payments i took up, ats, dts, im so incredibly sorry but im going to drop them. i wont make excuses, just that it wouldnt be fair to make you wait when i simply wouldn't complete them. if anyone has any questions/wants to take a character back from a trade or whatever, let me know! i probably wont be using the characters ive collected over the years (), so im pretty much good with giving the ones that can be given to better owners away. i think ill keep the ones with art, though. cause i love looking at others' depictions of my characters. :D THANKS! IDK HOW TO END THIS SO ! OKAY! <3333 SHOUT JESUS FROM THE MOUNTAINS AND JESUS IN THE STREETS!