try your best to read all of it so it seems i haven't signed onto this account for... uh.. 2 months! that's a lot of minutes! and a plethora of seconds! yeah um thank gap for my absence I xqz'd off-site I didn't even start my entry but I promise next episode if I stay in somehow i'll actually try! as for WHY that happened... i've overall lost a lot of the drive i originally had for scratch, and i'm barely getting any projects out on my main, nor here. i've just been less interested in scratch lately. and it's a shame. i heard i have executive dysfunction! not officially diagnosed, but extremely likely according to me and my "research!" (literally being like one Google search) it's not like i don't wanna be here tho. i really do. i just can't bring myself to, for whatever reason it may be that i feel this way. i'll try to get more projects out, even if a little. i'll even try filler although i want most if not all my projects to have some sort of effort put into them. that's one of the reasons nothing gets out, because it's gotta be perfect. and i try my hardest to make it perfect, and burn trying! cool, right? no one cares about this account anyway. maybe if people cared i'd do more. but nobody even cared to ask about the inactivity. i'm not asking to be featured page popular. that's a fate i wouldn't bestow upon my worst enemy. i just want a little more. my most viewed project is a project i made for someone else with more followers than me (hi cyn) and that just feels wrong. shouldn't my best project be the one i actually worked hard for? if people genuinely cared, i'd be here more often. but it's a drag trying so hard to entertain the audience that isn't even there in the first place, so why bother? i've been told that my assets and stuff are cool, so then why do i have no views? it's really unfair to me, and i guess that's another reason i was gone so long. because nobody missed me. so i stayed gone. maybe i should just try harder? studios? advertising studios? big osc studios? tags? ...no not tags maybe tags. anyways don't expect projects to come out like hotcakes i'm still dealing with a buncha stuff other than this account i do think it's a shame how this account is doing..
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