Don't even ask at this point. Literally they look at me like I'm the problem, what do you want? My soul? Heart? I'm like what? 11 and your like 40,it's not like I'm the person that caused this. "BE MORE LIKE BLAH BLAH" shut up. It's never what I want, it's always what my brother want. "LISTEN TO YOUR BROTHERS" .... "Your weak, so listen to them." being the middle child absolutely sucks.. Im trying, okay?! You could've fought in another place? All the parents looking worried, like Im supposed to deal with it. If I'm the "weakling" or the "cause" guess id rather have a different family. My anxiety is getting worse. I can't even think straight in overwhelming situations. I'm taking a break. I don't know how long.
