Where did I go? Info Dump + Update

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i should start off by saying that this is literally a big pile of text so if you hate reading, my bad... this project is an update on my activity here (on scratch) and just like whats been going through my head ig (this comes straight out of my thoughts, and jumps from idea to idea very quickly so it might be hard to understand.) not expecting many people to see this but id rather get this out sooner than later okay I don't know where to start. i do apologize for being so inactive, considering ive had so much free time. the last time I posted was in June... im not sure if there are people who actually wait for me to do stuff but if im being honest, im loosing interest in scratch + sosc/ssc. the main reason is just that its getting a bit boring, and i should say that i have no problem with newgens (I welcome you into the community with big open arms!) but... a lot of them are pretty young. idk if its just me but it feels weird or awkward liking or viewing projects by people who are so much younger?? and the content can sometimes be weird or not entertaining/interesting. even just being general, theres a lot more sloppy projects, (and i totally understand because everyones busy and we have lives to live lol) but its just not keeping me attatched to here anymore. I miss the old sosc a lot, but I can positively say that from when I first started to now and beyond, my art has improved so much, and I appreciate that this community helped with when yall inspired me to keep posting! (so this is a genuine thank you, to those present and those who have quit too) now for the other half of the interest loss: i mean its no surprise that people change and stop liking what they liked, but im finding so much new stuff to enjoy! I want to back away from the community because I feel like it's been limiting me to just drawing objects. (i mean its also completely my fault for barely practicing anything else) im sure you've heard this before but being here is sorta like an obligation to post, and if its not osc, no views. there are a couple art pieces that im hesitant to post because of this. ive been making art soley for follower/community satisfaction but not really for me. I want to improve a lot more and actually learn to draw other things. it should be whats enjoyable just made me realize that ive probably got to lock in. i have some goals, but the osc is just not part of them i dont want to have the sosc and this burden of posting stop me from staying focused and just getting outside and doing more/different stuff in general. I hyperfixate easily and just get consumed by what im working on because I am a perfectionist and suck at multitasking this is almost the end so if you read this far, first of all i congratulate you because i could not stand re reading this before i posted, and I also hope you understand my choices and loss of interest in the scratch community (im going to be pretty inactive, but i always check notifs if you wanna say hi) there is no doubt that I am quitting soon, and this is my last project. I think what makes it easier is the fact that I have a bit of followers, but I think I really only had enough friends on this platform to count with one or two hands (and like half are irl friends anyways...hi you know who you are) aka im not too attached to this platform I did wish to get to know some more people better but alas im not great with online convos again, im thankful to everyone because just being apart of this community has improved my art so much, ive noticed some amazing people on here and its been pretty fun and enjoyable