hiiii so. this has been something ive been thinking about for a very long time. and ive decided that im leaving my position as gaehive manager. while the gaehive has been a great experience for me, and being a manager has taught me a lot of valuable skills, its just...not the same. when i first became manager, i felt so important, and like i helped out so much. i had fun making the thumbnails and helping people out. but its changed, and i have too. you've probably noticed, but ive barely been online even after my months long break, even during host shifts. and thats because i really dont feel any... drive to log on. it feels more like an obligation. back when i became a manager, i was such a different person. kinda felt like my whole life is online. but its not like that anymore. im older and have more independence, and i have friend who really care about me and like... actually hang out with me. im part of clubs in school and outside of school, i go to more local events , i get outside more, im getting employed- i just dont have time for the gaehive anymore or really the need for it so while i had fun managing and this community supported me through some really rough times, ive kind of outgrown it. i know its bad timing, with the week long closure and the managers that have already left, but i just need to get it over with. i just want to tell you all that even though i know it doesn't feel like it, there is more outside the screen, and it can get better. if you can, i hope you take this as a sign to spend less time online and spend more time making art, going outside, meeting new people, having new experiences and just in general... have fun!!
while i might pop in on scratch once in a while, ill likely not be on it very often at all. but always feel free to leave me a comment on my YouTube [ ourplerowboat ] i also have other offsite accounts, but i cant share them here- if youre old enough to be in any off-site gaehive communities youll probably be able to find my account pretty easy, whether though me being in them or messaging another manager to ask. im always there to talk <3 thanks for the good times
