Little bit of racism in here, just a warning :) Full screen is recommend. Use the arrows to go to the next and previous page. Yay our second task! I miiiigght have went a bit vent mode on this poem but it’s fineeee I’m fineeee I pasted the poem here if yall couldn’t read it: 'You have it lucky.' I stared at him. 'What weight do you have on your shoulders?' You think I live happy? You think I live carefree, without a doubt? You think I’m unperturbed, praised, unfazed? Do I resemble Mickey Mouse to you? That joyful, benevolent, don’t give a dime mouse? You know what weight I have on my shoulders? I carry around ignobility. Egregiousness. Flagrancy. People cheer for you. They acknowledge you. They advocate for you. They love you. But they hate me. Hate what I was, what I am, what I will do. There is no one to support me. I work. And work. And no one notices. I am just a needle in a haystack who no one is willing to find. I am just a grain of sand on the vast lands of the beach which people step on without hesitation. I am a stone skipped across a lake, no thought on where I will go, how deep I will sink. How I will feel. 'Who is this kid?' they ask. 'Who is this kid who thinks he can fight? Who thinks he can liberate? Who thinks he can do anything? He’s scrawny. He’s ugly. He’s Indian.' That’s the difference between us. You are a white man, pure, free, who can do anything he desires. I am the brown male, the Indian, the outcast, who should be hiding in the shadows. Not seeking attention. Not following what I love. I am unworthy of life. I am despicable. I am desperate for the spotlight, the attention I do not deserve. Even being with you, I am hated. How am I working for a superstar? How am I working for such a well-known man? Someone who does deserve the spotlight? Someone with talent? While I have none? He put all his attention on me. 'You go nowhere because of thoughts like these.' Do you think I want to demote myself? These are the thoughts of others. Their opinions, their words. Their daggers, which start to pierce into your heart until there’s a hole. The hole of a broken fantasy. Of broken dreams. Of a broken future, fractured by the ones who could have made it better. My vision blurred, and I looked the other way. That’s the difference between us. You are successful, and I am not. I felt arms wrap around me. I hesitated, then melted in the embrace of the person I used to find intolerable. 'Do you know what the difference is between us?' I didn’t answer. 'You don’t have the ability to silence out criticism.' I pulled back to look at him. 'I will support you. I will make you push those thoughts out of your head. I will make you change your mindset.' I hugged him tight. The world vanished around me, and I focused on his warmth. 'I will love you.' HAHAHAHA I couldn’t resist adding the last part (yes I’m in the realistic fiction cabin but it’s fineee a little romance won’t hurt would it, plus Jai’s story isn’t entirely circling around his love life so it won’t really be classified as romance) I am HORRIBLE at poems i was panicking so hard when I found out our task was a poem ☠️ i usually write them just like I would a regular novel, just with repeating words and stuff haha Erm if yall haven’t read my entry for the first task this probably won’t make much sense to you about what’s going on and who he’s talking to so here’s the link: Uhm this is set after 9/11 happened, where many South Asian people were discriminated for the terrorist attack. There were revenge attacks, assaults, name calling, threats, and surveillance against South Asians. They were profiled under NSEERS. Many families were deported back to their original homes. Hollywood and other movie companies made movies around Muslim terrorism, which put down many South Asians to their path of success (i can’t talk properly please tell me if this makes sense or not). Jai is one of those people. (NO I’M NOT IN THE HISTORICAL FICTION CABIN I’M FLOPPING WHY DOES IT SOUND LIKE I AM NO NO I’M STILL IN REALISTIC TRUST and ykw i probably should have put this in task one.. oh well) Hehe bye
