Heyo [Thursday' July 24 2025.] Lifes been uh Tough. Its fine if you call me Dramatic since im js a Kid' i wont judge since its ur opinion (maybe even a fact idk) Schools been racking with my brain. which makes me yknow' fumble on my project upload in scratch. i've been talking to my IRL Friends from school on my daily health (well bc their my best buddies) and they said i REALLY Need comfort. like alot (Note: im not tryna beg for attention' nor begging for comfort. im js Documenting how im currently doing in this website.) They said im drifting from reality due to all the stress thats been going on lately (Friend Problems' family relations' etc) and i need comfort and stuff. Sooo yeah. About school' Assignments are getting to me. (im grade 6 btw) like im being jumped left and right for family relationship.....eh i guess its going...idk??? srs fight js happend yesterday. its my fault for not paying attention. wish i wasnt resting. Soooo i lost my only connection with my IRL Friends. (the rain is insane in the Philippines so i cant physically talk to them) Because my mom broke my phone. Look' im not tryna say that i dont deserve it. i really do' i shouldve paid attention. like i said im js documenting whats going on in my life. she yelled some....things i shouldnt rly type in this website. i dont blame her' she had trauma with my real father....and im basically the "Remains" of him. And yeah. i've been beating myself up with HARD self-doubt since yesterday. i dont blame her for having a son like me' really. im a disappointment to my OWN bloodline If my mom had a wish that she would wish for it to come true. it would probably a better son. and i dont blame her' like im a Disappointment to her' i cant even make her proud for once Again im not trying to gain attention. i just want someone to talk to because im actually having a hard time. you can type in the comments if you want. i just hope i didnt waste your time on this website. [30/10/2025.] 10:53 pm I sometimes wonder if i should keep pushing through. Life is just. Heaven on earth. the never ending pressure is slowly getting Unbearable. i sometimes wonder. Do i end it? Should i take the path that my father has walked on? the thoughts. they keep me up at night. its hard trying to keep a straight face once in a while. its Tiring. Why do i even try anymore? the things i do. they dont even matter. sometimes i wonder. was drawing the only thing im good at? like sure' its cool and all. but it wont help me get through life. it sucks' really.
