hello. im not actually sure where to even start. except that you all mean the world to me, and im out of words. </3 to put it short and sweet— i think im leaving scratch. probably forever. the only thing i’ll use it for will be to stay in contact with those i love most. if i get alternative sites they’re on— great, ill talk to them there instead. but otherwise? im not coming back. welcome to willowwood will be dropped, or picked up again offline as a passion project. my music career is blossoming, though. ill have a youtube channel up soon. really soon. ill come back on if its to let you guys know of it. im getting better now. and i think a lot of it was because i knew i was never really alone. that people on here genuinely cared about me, were willing to wait, and willing to hold my hand from miles apart. that alone is enough to hurt my heart in the absolute best way possible. scratch and people on here have been a huge part of my life for 4-5 years now. and while i may leave those feelings will indefinitely stay. i love this place, i love everyone. and while ive had my ups and downs with it— there has always been the euphoria ive gotten from interactions here. so let me hand off a huge hug and thank you, to everyone individually who has supported me. if you are not on here, i dont know you. to marie: oh, god. where do i even begin with you? you were actually the first person ive ever had a meaningful friendship with here, or ever, actually. even though how we met was silly— i still reminisce of it so fondly. you’re brilliant, marie. you’re just so kind, so talented, sweet, and thoughtful. not to mention absolutely hilarious. you’ve made me laugh out loud more times than i could possibly count. you’re one of the people id love to keep in touch with after i leave. marie, seriously, words cannot express how deeply i care for you and appreciate you. im sorry if anything i ever did upset you, because honestly you dont deserve that from anybody. i wish you everything good that life has to offer. you’re talented with art, and music, and genuinely such a wonderful person to converse with. i hope i made the most of our time together, because i know one day if i look back on our friendship and i havent, im certainly gonna be mad at myself. i love you. /plat to razz: ah, razz. oh my gosh, im so seriously gonna miss you. we met under really silly circumstances— a roleplay war. even before we actually became friends you already seemed like such a fun person. and once i got to know you, i realized how truly genuine you were. you’re *so* sweet, razz. and god, i am glad i met you. please, please keep in touch with me, if at all possible. i’ll miss you and your 9-in-1, bath salts lol. thank you for your fun ideas for wtww, and for being an authentic person, for being a friend when i needed one— and being such an amazing person.i love you sosososos much. /plat to selkie; i am going to cry. selkie, when my older brothers left both under dramatic circumstances, leaving me with nobody to lean on and no older sibling figures to look up to, i found you. you are like an older sibling to me, you’re so fun to talk to— because i know you’re genuinely interested in conversations we hold. you’re amazing. words cannot express the extent of my care for you. i love you. and please— if you at all have ANY other means of contact, tell me. /plat to lennon/teddy; oh my gosh, you two were both seriously huge fun. im going to miss you so bad. </3, you were both so kind and funny and just such cool people. i seriously look up to you, your animations and art are so cool, not to mention your ideas. i hope that you succeed in life, i will it. i love you both sm. /plat to gwdfi; im sorry to see you all go. but ive had the best interactions on there, with you guys. best wishes. continue to grow as people even as gwdfi splits apart.</3 —- i think that’s the last of my goodbyes. i hope they aren’t goodbyes. i hope they’re more like.. see you later’s. i couldn’t bear to leave any of you behind. you all mean the world to me. i’d go on death row for you all without a trace of hesitation. /srs i hope you know im not one for being shallow and just throwing things out there. i think real love goes beyond just enjoying someone’s presence— at least the way i love. i love you all because of the meaningful impact you’ve had on my life, and me as a person. allowing me to grow and feel safe whenever i couldn’t irl. because of *you* im pursuing my interests and dreams. because without your motivation i probably wouldn’t have. thank you for giving me the love and support one needs to grow. for nudging me. for telling me “you can.” when i didnt think i could. i know this sounds dramatic, but look, you’ve done more for me than you realize. im serious. one day this post will become 1 week old. then 4. then 6 months. then 5 years. then eventually rot. then i will. but ill be glad id have even known you. love, lacey.
I want you all to keep growing, chasing joy, finding new people to love—but I also hope that once in a while, you’ll think of me and smile. that’s more than enough. so i say goodnight. but you know what? the sun always rises again. may we meet once more. love, lacey.
