People will tell me to "talk to other kids, make friends!" I don't think that they understand that it's more than talking its calculating and planning like I am robbing a bank instead of making small talk and then if I manage to do it I lie awake with a choir in my head when all I want is to sleep because I have to be the early bird that gets the worm but my thoughts like to compete about who can be the loudest and I go over every single thing I have ever felt guilty about and then all at once... they stop. and there's a moment of beautiful silence. before they start screaming about every little thing I did wrong, overthinking. I wake up and go to school the next day where I start thinking about how annoying I'm being asking questions and my friends think I'm annoying and I'm out of control spinning but nobody notices the never do and even if they did all I can think is that if I tell them I'm being a burden and then I go back home and try to find sad songs because sometimes it feels good to cry because I don't want to be cheered up I want to be comforted but then I'm seeking attention and peoples sympathy makes me uncomfortable and all I can think sometimes is that I am not okay but the important thing is that nobody can tell.
so this is my submission to the writing competition hosted by @Liza_Grace this is basically a rant in the form of a slam poem ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ image found on google The song is heavy by skydxddy and citizen soldier U should totally check out skydxddy she’s like an amazing alt pop or like hip hop artist or whatever my point is she is an AMAZING QUEEN
