Note: Okay, this is kind of just a vent, with a slight update at the bottom. Other note: I specially picked out the words to describe stuff. Ask me the meaning in the comments ig Hi… There’s been some stuff I’m going through, both irl, and online. I’ve been stressing about middle school and it’s already starting in exactly two weeks and the new student orientation is this week- Tuesday through Thursday. It’s really hard, I’m leaving behind all of my friends, and everything I’ve known at my elementary school. My best friend who’s going as well has friends they care more about than me… I don’t know what it’ll be like. I’ve also been struggling with my place in my family and friends. I’ve lived my life in groups of three, always the outcast, fighting for my place, last place. All of my friends care more about someone else. I’ve been deeply betrayed many times before. Also, all of my friends can do things I’m not allowed to. I don’t have a phone, I can’t drink most soda, eat most sweets, and I have really strict boundaries online. I’m not even supposed to use Scratch other than for playing games… Also, I recently was promoted on my swim team, and don’t get me wrong, I’m super excited, but sometimes I wonder if I can do it. Swimming is the only thing that clears my mind, and now it's changing. My best friend on Scratch is growing less and less active, and she always gave me motivation and was just a really awesome friend to me. Now that she's way less active, I have less and less motivation to come to Scratch. Shoutout to @Q1nix Now about all the contests I was joining… Okay, so I’ll still do some, but honestly I’m zapped of motivation. I pick up a pencil, but can’t write a poem, even a stanza, even a line. It’s taking me so much longer to do art, I just stare at a blank canvas, so I might be dropping out of most contests.
