Edit: I'll reword this into a question later [Added later: I'm probably overthinking things again Also this has nothing to do with me feeling not so great today If I had a nickel for every time I changed this title I'd have at least 5 nickels, which isn't much but it's weird it's happened multiple times I wrote this yesterday night so it's not the most coherent thing. But maybe I should just paste this here now:] If you read a certain fanfiction abbreviated 'MS' or immediately know what I'm talking about after the first sentence, don't continue reading. Or do, I don't really care. Anyway: Help help help okay so in my comic the main character was first one guy but then became four guys and they're still inside one head. One body multiple people. As far as I'm aware, this sounds like they're plural. In a system. However, if they were, it wouldn't be 'yay I'll research somewhat more and then I might be able to write plural representation' because this guy can like- not function since this happened. 'Walks into the wall because they cannot cooperate on what way to go' kind of can't function. And I feel like with the way I'm writing them it kind of makes them sound like they're indeed plural and I also feel like that would make them not that great representation. It wasn't meant like that because when I started writing this, I didn't even know systems existed. I had vaguely heard of plural people once or something, but I didn't know anything about them. Now I know a bit, still not much (all I know is from people in the gaehive, together with one or two google searches because I wanted to know what a certain term meant (I didn't even know it was related to plural people when I searched that)) but now I know that these people exist and I've never, not even once, seen them represented. Not even in all the many stories I've read on scratch (and other sites) with so many different people of underrepresented groups and communities. So I'm afraid that I'll offend people by writing my main character as a something comparable to someone in a system and literally have them not be able to even do normal things because if it could possibly be the closest thing ever to representation and I can't write it because it's not meant this way so I'll just offend everyone and this sentence is too long and unreadable. I'm not going to quit writing this comic because I love it and can't cut out this part often story because this part causes them to do a lot of things that if they didn't happen the entire point of the comic would just not exist anymore. Nothing can convince me to stop writing it because it's a passion project and, as I said, I really love most parts of the story. But what is possible is that I'll feel very bad about this first arc because of this, which is something I don't want. After what I think is chapter 10, they will not really be dealing with this 'problem' anymore because it's 'solved', so that's what I mean with first arc. Even if the people already reading- including me- don't have to think about this part of the story anymore, there will still be new people reading who I could offend/give misinformation. I could put a disclaimer that I didn't mean to write it like this and that they're not meant to be interpreted as plural representation but maybe this makes people now aware of the similarities and that could have multiple bad outcomes: 1. People will hate (selfish, bad reason) and 2. People who didn't know what a system was will search it up and see my not-representation as how this actually works and will make plural people seem not-functional. (Better reason?) This is probably not very likely but for some reason I think like this. Maybe putting a disclaimer at all isn't even necessary. After all I don't know that much about plural people/systems and I could be totally wrong and have offended people with this vent. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to. Maybe I am just overthinking and worrying and feeling bad about nothing. Wouldn't be the first time, I guess. This all makes me feel very self-centered and selfish I really am sorry if I am a terrible person. Also I'm aware this sounds so stupid if I think about it but still and I don't know what to do and help help I feel so bad what can I do- Sorry this was so long and incoherent, I would appreciate advice or something but I don't need it I just had to get it out. Although. I really have no clue what to do with this. Bye. Have a good day/night/whatever. (/gen)
