TW: mentions of SH and possible ED This is a vent. Do not report it please... I feel old. I'll be going into highschool or early college next year.. I feel like I was in 2024 a few days ago.. I have horrible thoughts..but my friend has them too..(irl) I should help them stop their SH.. Am i selfish for thinking about doing SH.. Am i a hypocrite..? I dont do it..it wouldnt be good...but.. I cant tell people how i feel. When i try to they end up venting somehow.. I cant even express emotions correctly... I havent been eating..the thought of food makes me feel.. sick. I dont wanna be like this... why do i have these thoughts... I wish i could do something.. my parents dont belive me... i dont tell them about everything... they would send me off somewhere...to get help they did that to my sister....she just had anxiety though.. I dont know what gender i am... I hate my body... I hate feeling like a girl...i dont want to be a girl...i dont want to be anything... I hate this. I hate my parents(-dad) I hate myself I hate everything.. .. I dont want to be upset or angry.. But i cant cry ... .. I dont want to post this but it might help- a bit maybe...
