but a friend can make it better maybe?

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being alive is unfair. if you're human, you have to deal with the burdens of life. if you're an animal, you're taken advantage of by humans, or just have no conscience. if you're a man, not enough people care about your mental health and feelings. if you're a woman, you're in more danger for just existing. if you're trans or gay, you get discriminated against. if you're any other race than caucasian in this goddamn country (i'm in america :'>), then there's a high chance you'll also get discriminated against. people are so terrible, so stupid. people will willingly grab a gun and go to a store, a city, a town, a school, with bad intentions. the most selfish, ignorant people are who are in charge of almost everything in this DAMN COUNTRY. they only care about themselves. parents don't seem to know how to parent anymore. taking advantage of their kids for money, handing them an electronic and calling it a day, depriving them of things a child should have, some need. a lot of children barely even have a childhood. a lot of people can't even afford groceries. a lot of people don't have a house. i've passed by homeless people when my parents take me places, and i feel bad for them. i wish i could do something, but i can't. children apparently can't read. people my age can't spell. they have a terrible attention span. i feel so dumb compared to so many people. this "dumb american" stereotype is so right. it makes me feel bad. one of my teachers is using ai to teach us. im convinced most of the teachers here use it to grade, too. my school uses so much ai art, it's not even funny. The school knows it has people who can make beautiful art, but it chooses to use ai instead. I see it every day. I hate it. Whenever I tell my mom about something that makes me upset, she usually brushes it off. She's too positive all the time, she ignores the negative half the time, and i hate it when i actually do want to talk about the negatives, but she won't listen. my dad doesn't want to talk to us that much, either. he's either working or watching tv. he'll talk if we ask him a question, but that's mostly it. the people in my life unknowingly make me feel so alone sometimes. my friends, my family, everyone. i hate it. life is so unfair. i didn't choose to be here. why do i have to do this? this was all against my will. i don't want to live somewhere where i'll probably fail in life and have nothing and die early. i wouldn't be against that. i'm not gonna do it myself, but it wouldn't be so bad. i wouldn't have to go through so much stress of just living. i don't feel like it'd change much if i wasn't here anyway. i have no one to rant to. usually in my dizzcourd group chat, i'll be ignored. i'm not going to rant to my siblings, that'd be embarrassing. i don't think they'd listen either. my parents aren't good at making me feel comforted sometimes. i don't want to talk to them about it. i don't know why. i just don't. the internet makes me feel bad sometimes, so i get told not to use it a lot. but it's also one of the only things that make me happy a lot. i'm okay at school, but at home there's not that much for me. i don't always want to draw, i never want to re-read books, and almost every book in my house is for toddlers or little kids, my parents always have the tv, our electronics for games get boring once i play every game im interested in, and there's nothing else. i wish life was fair. I'M GOING TO CRASH OUT BECAUSE OF SCRATCH'S BAD WORD FILTER I SWEAR TO GOD, AFTER I FINISH THIS WHOLE RANT ITS STUPID MESSAGE GOES "UHG OHT THEERERS A BAD WOEHRD IN YOTRU TEXT EWIUFDJSHJNIUDSJKCXNVISUDJVN" AND ISTG IM GOING TO BASH MY HEAD INTO A WALL