hello. you all know yuzu, and i’m not going to pretend like i’m some reinvented person. i’m yuzu. but i wasn’t always yuzu. before reading, i just need you all to promise me one thing: don’t let the aes comm find this. and if they do, promise me you’ll have my back. because the story isn’t pretty. i was 8 years old. it was right around the beginning of third grade. up until that point, i’d been using tynker for coding and had heard of scratch, and how it was supposed to be way better. so during my school free time, i made an account. @socoolsuper. that’s who i was. i was very inactive on that account, since i was barely able to use it, until the middle of 4th grade, when i got the very same ipad i’m typing this story on now. i came back to scratch, and after hearing of the “aesthetic community” and getting the new aes commer starter pack (@astro-tears, @bubble-frog, @luviinqq), i joined right around then. a few months later, i got into kpop, which may be the only thing about me that hasn’t changed since then. over the summer, i hit my first milestone (10 flws) which might’ve been one of the happiest days ever. 9 year olds are weird like that. i slowly but surely grew a bit, until i hit 100 around the middle of 5th grade. during that time i had also joined spop, ( and left shortly after ) , on @minnn-offi_cial-. we do not talk about that mkay. then i moved to @kviw. i think that move was right around when the hell started , if i’m not mistaken . i started to go onto b oards, where i would face an insane amount of ageism and cyber bullying. i talked more about it here: https://scratch.mit.edu/projects/1000492035/ but the full story is more like this: i started going onto b rd with other people from the aes comm, and while a lot of times i would have a positive experience, majority would go something like this: “omg those immature ahh 10 year olds” me: “girl im 10” them “oh… why are u here the aes comm is not for you” wth does that mean grandma !! i would try to defend myself but i just ended up getting into fights, i was on everyone’s opp list, my self esteem was at what was at that time my all time low, and when i tried to defend myself people would be proud. they’d be freaking proud they made a child who was barely done with elementary school cry herself to sleep. i wrote this at the time, and never posted it because I didn’t have the guts. but i’m not dependent on the aes comm anymore. so here it is: “im done.” (project from june 5th 2024) “im gonna get hated for this, so I want to make one thing CLEAR: everything I say is my opinion, you can’t change it nor am I hating. I’m just sharing my experience and opinions, which you can’t change. I’m allowed to dislike whoever I want, hate whoever I want, have any opps, just as you can. if you can h8 me but I can’t h8 u, that sounds like a double standard. keep in mind I may reference rules from the everyone comm, all rules are DIRECTLY COPY PASTED. nothing quoted from others is changed, including name drops. IM DONE WITH NOT NAME DROPPING.” 1. my opp list: 1. [r] whatever acc she’s on rn (yes I dare to opp your favs. remember: MY OPINION) 2. [c] when/if she’s active (girl has audacity) 3. [r] when/if she’s still active (the manager title was not worn well) 4. [j] when/if she’s still active (you were supposed to be my friend then kicked me to the curb) they all have audacity to be so rude to me nd then their popularity protects them from getting in any trouble in the comm. im done.” this was my true feelings at the time. and i was broken into pieces. i just tried to move on, but clearly that wasn’t enough. because then i decided to move. not go full secret account, but i did move and change my name. i was now on . the account that would soon be the death of me. life was great. (not really, but compared to before i was on top of the world). i was happy in the comm, i was nominated for best curator ( and got one vote…. ) and i was fine. i was knee deep into being a stay at this point, so i went to ’s prf to see what was there. and i saw a mix of nctzens and stays, which i had expected. but i didn’t expect to see nctzens telling stays to leave, that they were wrong, etc. so i commented saying “can nctzens quit telling stays to leave?” and a certain person, who i’m sure most aes commer’s can guess, ( aes comm nctzens, kinda toxic, ) had to start a whole fight. (now deleted). on christmas. attacking me, my personality, my fandom, and my self esteem. that is what finished me. (also, while looking back at comments from then i found a few from koh. funny how that goes.) so i took drastic measures. i went to a secret account. thus, , and later , and later , and now , were born. the second part of this story (about me joining spop) is here:
aside from the last person who bullied me, please don’t hate on anyone mentioned here! that last person is just a disgusting human who’s done even more things since then, so feel free to hate on them <3
