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so. i tried to get giddybug enough exp to leave urchinclan by fighting a predator. she died. if this was, say, honeydewpaw, i'd be upset, but i'm just... not. i didn't like giddybug as a character. she wasn't evil, she was just.. a bad person. she was horrible to her siblings. she was self-centered. she was horrible to her kits. that's not the kind of character i wanted to roleplay. every sentence written felt like an obligation. i genuinely despise her. and now i find myself asking, "when did that happen?" i adored giddykit. she was lively and excitable. a mini-morpho without the blood. then half her family died. only two siblings were left. she was the eldest, taking the weight onto her own shoulders and grew to resent them. this was fine! i still loved her after that. i think after she killed beebounce, i just... lost interest, to put it lightly. i tried to be more involved with her by giving her a litter, but it didn't work. i just kept hating her more and more. take my previous characters, pantherkit, vulpinekit, and honeydewpaw. pantherkit was an egomaniac and thought he was better than everyone. his superiority complex led to thinking he was safe, which resulted in his death. after death, he did a /lot/ of self-reflection. vulpinekit heard his family and friends die while safe in the nursery. he had nightmares constantly and often couldn't talk about them due to the language barrier of sign language. he would teach other cats signs and make name signs for his close friends. it was great! i wish i could've roleplayed him longer. honeydewpaw was a devout starclan worshipper and insane. her parents and sister died when she was young, causing her to attach herself to an apprentice by the name of gigglepaw. she would often repeat words, repeating more as she was more stressed, and it was really fun to use that in her character. in the dark forest, she is terrified of being made fun of for her repeats like she was in the living world, so she suppresses them, even though it feels horrible. honeydew was my magnum opus. i adored her and still do. so why do i hate giddybug? giddybug was basic. her whole character was supposed to be that she was a carbon copy of morphosmile. that just... didn't happen. giddybug is the same character everyone makes. a cat who's depressed because their family died and hates their clan and remaining family and thinks everyone hates them. so this is goodbye.