Gosh, never in my years did I think saying goodbye would be this hard, I genuinely feel like crying as I type this. My life right now is very hectic, something I may have never told those who I'd made friends here with or in general is that I have constant pressure, stress & I find myself raging out sometimes. Being a senior comes with its own hardships, you have exams, you get pressure from your family...and I'm going through an extreme phase of that part of life right now. I recently moved to another country, feel isolated, my best friend passed away, My dad is unwell...My mental health isn't well, my body is tired, I feel like I need to focus on life right now. That being said, these past 8 months on scratch were a blessing. When I first joined, I had no idea on what I wanted to do, I'm great when it comes to coding in python, but on scratch? Not really my thing. So, I decided to create art, because that was a hidden talent of mine, creating pixel art, and I'm grateful for all the support and love I received for my projects <333 Next thing I want to say is that I lost a teacher of mine who had taught me for 5 years and that's when I came up with this project: https://scratch.mit.edu/projects/1139564089 I never expected so much love and support during that hard time, so thank you <3 Getting a studio on #1 trending for 3 months straight and hitting 7k+ followers was a dream come true: https://scratch.mit.edu/studios/36377469 but at the same time, I received a lot of backlash and negative feedback. There were many doppelgangers of my account, hate, but I took that as positive feedback to improve.... but sometimes that slips and you take it seriously. Becoming a PPTBF studio curator, manager of the Scratch Chat, host of my own 2 studios, sharing my art, making friends and building bonds here on scratch was what really put me together during this hard time in my life. I honestly don't know...I don't know why I'm leaving; there's this part inside of me that feels pressure from being on scratch, I'm the type of person who loves responding to every single comment I get, I'm the type of person who puts 6 hours daily in creating my projects, the type of person who spends at least 7 hours on scratch exploring, responding to comments, having fun etc. That's where I'm falling apart. I can't seem to find a way to manage life here and my real life, I can't find a way to take negative feedback as positive feedback, it's hard. I'm not saying I'm leaving scratch for good, I may come online once in a week or two, to read through the comments, maybe share a project, respond to comments and stuff...maybe. I genuinely hope that in my time on scratch I've been able to inspire at least some of you, help you in some way. I hope I've been able to make people laugh and smile :3 Many thanks to all of my followers, my friends (you know who *wink*) and to all the human beings here on scratch, I love y'all so much from the bottom of my heart ❤️ P.S. I might start new, new account but that'll be hidden or might log in time to time on this account. Until we meet again, keep creating, keep dreaming, and keep being the chaotic, puzzling, beautiful souls you are <3
