Sometimes it feels like I have to be everything all at once smart, pretty, confident, funny, and basically perfect. Like, I can’t just do okay in school, I have to be at the top. I can’t just look nice, I have to look *perfect* every single day. And somehow, I’m supposed to balance it all without messing up or showing that I’m struggling. It’s so much pressure. I feel like if I slip even a little if I don’t look good one day or don’t do well on a test people will judge me or think less of me. It’s exhausting trying to live up to this idea of perfection that isn’t even real. But even knowing that doesn’t make the pressure go away. It’s like I’m constantly chasing something I’m not even sure I can ever fully reach. And what’s even more frustrating is that no matter what I do, it still doesn’t feel good enough. Like, I could study all night and still feel behind, or put effort into how I look and still feel invisible. It’s like I’m stuck in this never-ending loop of trying to prove myself and not getting anywhere. It makes me want to scream sometimes, honestly.
I have to be smart, pretty, and just basically perfect all the time. I’m expected to get good grades, look good, be nice, be confident, but not *too* confident or else you’re just full of yourself , and somehow not mess anything up. It’s so much pressure, and it gets really overwhelming. Even when I try my best, it still feels like it’s not enough. Like if I’m doing well in school, I’m not doing enough socially, or if I look good one day, I feel like I’m falling behind somewhere else. It’s like I’m always trying to prove something, and it’s exhausting. I just wish I could breathe and not feel like I have to be everything at once. I’m sorry if you can relate
