I feel like crying every day but I cant except when no ones around and that's only late at night but then I'll get horrible sleep and make it harder the next day so I just hold it in until I'll probably break like a freaking dam. they're gonna find out they're gonna find out they're gonna find out they're gonna find out and then I'll be in so much crap and I wont be able to be friends with my friends and have to move because I'm not allowed. and she're almost dead right now she's lying in her bed beside me is it better if she was dead she had a good life right?? I don't faking know but she cant die I've only had 15 years with her but the vet said no and shes not eating her food but she's a beagle isn't that like really bad for beagles and there's an awful smell coming from her mout but I don't know what to do I need help but everyone's already busy its not my place to ask. they hate me or at least they will they say the love me but then why do they say those awful things who is lying who LIED back then who can I trust I don't know someone help me I don't know I donw know. when they find out they're gonna hate me I know I shouldn't keep it a secret from my parents but if I don't then I'll be hated and I know I shouldn't keep it a secret from them but if I don't they'll hate me more. I see the way you look at me and I hear your tone when I do something. I know you hate me and Im so sorry I didn't mean for it but please don't leave me I cant not have you in my life what if she dies and I cant do anything what if SHE dies and I lose another person who really loved me without reason
