theres a tldr in the credits if you dont wanna read so much btw it was august 27th and my school was doing an early release day so basically if you had a ride you could leave school early but the bus kids had to wait at school for an hour for the bus that was coming at the normal pick up time. my mom was gonna pick me up early but i asked her not to so i could stay with my friends who were waiting for the bus. she agreed so i went to the lunchroom and sat at a table with Kasper, Em, and some of em's friends. me and em were practicing violin together for like 30 minutes i think so we took a little break and were chatting with our friends. some random boys come up to our table. one of them said "I like your violin" to me and i was like thanks and he showed me his phone where it said "do you like men or women?" with a number of votes on each (25 for men, 24 for women). at first, I clicked men. but i quickly realized that you can click both. So, without even thinking, I clicked women too. then Em was like "your bisexual???!??!! :000000" my heart sank. i didnt think anybody noticed. i just outed myself by accident!!! suddenly all the eyes at the table were on me. i felt embarrassed and just nodded while looking down at my violin. its hard for me to not feel ashamed and uncomfortable talking about that since i was raised to think that it was wrong. i was also worried since i didnt know if ems friends would be supportive of that. em was like omggg why didnt you tell me??? i asked you before!! i was feeling too overwhelmed to talk so i just shrugged. em kept asking why i didnt tell him and saying that hes asked before. kasper said it was probably cause i was straight back then when he asked. kasper was right but i didnt say anything still. em said "we support" a lot of times which was nice. but that was only him speaking for the whole table. i was scared of what his friends were thinking. then he asked if my mom knows, to which i said no. "why? would she approve?" he asked NO WAYY i said. he responded with "awww, *my name*..." later, he tells me it was obvious that im into women and that all his friends at the table said it was obvious too. So that was nice, especially considering im not trying to dress or act gay at all. cause like ik some ppl purposely try to dress gay so im glad i just naturally have that vibe. A week later, em tells me that hes bi too and i was like OMG CONGRATSSS BESTIE!!!
TLDR; afterschool waiting for the bus w my friends. Some boys give us a survey on their phone saying "do you like men or women?" So I clicked men, and then, w/o thinking, clicked women too. I didnt consider that my friends would notice. But of course em noticed and he was like "ur bisexual???!!! :0000" i was ashamed bc internalized homophobia, so i just nodded. em was like "why didnt u tell me?" and "we support!!" he then asked why i didnt tell my parents. i told them they are anti-lgbt+ and he was just like "awww, *my name*..." he later told me that it was obvious and everyone was just pretending to be suprised Imao. i was glad that i naturally have that vibe. A week later, he tells me that hes bi too!
